uhmerica

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2012-01-26T08:48:00.000-08:00

"You are emerging from the cocoon of your former self. There are no limits to the extent of the transformation that’s possible for you." — Marianne Williamson

As you simplify your life, the laws of the universe will be simpler; solitude will not be solitude, poverty will not be poverty, nor weakness weakness.
— Henry David Thoreau

sun in aquarius

2012-01-20T07:21:00.001-08:00

"The cave you fear to enter holds the treasure you seek." — Joseph Campbell

--THIS--

2012-01-14T15:31:00.000-08:00

-------------"Where there is love there are no demands, no expectations, no dependency.
I do not demand that you make me happy;
my happiness does not lie in you.
If you were to leave me, I will not feel sorry for myself;
I enjoy your company immensely,
But I do not cling." — Anthony De Mello --------------------------------

--------------------------"I have found both freedom and safety in my madness; the freedom of loneliness and the safety from being understood, for those who understand us enslave something in us." — Khalil Gibran, The Madman ----------------------

"When the heart weeps for what it has lost, the spirit laughs for what it has found." — Sufi Proverb

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2012-01-13T09:22:00.000-08:00

"Self-observation brings man to the realization of the necessity of self-change. And in observing himself a man notices that self-observation itself brings about certain changes in his inner processes. He begins to understand that self-observation is an instrument of self-change, a means of awakening." — G.I. Gurdjieff

"Your vision will become clear only when you look into your heart. Who looks outside, dreams. Who looks inside, awakens." — Carl Jung

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2012-01-12T12:36:00.000-08:00

“All happiness that is dependent on others
is bound to disappear sooner or later.
It is temporary, it is momentary, it is illusory.
Only that joy is yours which wells up
within your own being.

Hence Buddha says:
delight in meditation
delight in solitude

Aloneness is the joy of being just yourself.
It is being joyous with yourself,
it is enjoying your own company.

There are very few people
who enjoy their own company.
And it is a very strange world:
nobody enjoys his company
and everybody wants others to enjoy his company.” — Osho

unconcious

2012-01-11T08:50:00.000-08:00

"People will do anything, no matter how absurd, in order to avoid facing their own soul." — Carl Jung

"Unexpressed emotions will never die. They are buried alive and will come fourth later in ugly ways."
— Sigmund Freud

Ⓐ

2012-01-09T10:50:00.000-08:00

trash rules everything around me

new

2012-01-08T13:46:00.000-08:00

The greatest achievement is selflessness.
The greatest worth is self-mastery.
The greatest quality is seeking to serve others.
The greatest precept is continual awareness.
The greatest medicine is the emptiness of everything.
The greatest action is not conforming with the worlds ways.
The greatest magic is transmuting the passions.
The greatest generosity is non-attachment.
The greatest goodness is a peaceful mind.
The greatest patience is humility.
The greatest effort is not concerned with results.
The greatest meditation is a mind that lets go.
The greatest wisdom is seeing through appearances." — Atisha

"When I find myself reacting with anger or opposition to any person or circumstance, I will realize that I’m only struggling with myself." — Deepak Chopra

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2012-01-08T06:59:00.000-08:00

Surrender yourself to the Earth. Return what was loaned to you. Give up your pleasure, your pain, your friends, your lovers, your life, your past, what you desire. You will know nothingness, it is the only reality. The grave is the door to your rebirth.

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2012-01-02T06:15:00.000-08:00

"You are born - birth is only an opportunity, just a beginning, not an end. You have to flower. Your first and foremost responsibility is to blossom, to become fully conscious, aware, alert; and in that consciousness you will be able to see what you can share…" — Osho

“And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom”

It takes great deal of courage to see the world in all its tainted glory, and still to love it.
Oscar Wilde

It is a magic time, and you were wise to pick this time to be here…..

2012 is here

2011-12-31T18:32:00.000-08:00

Since the beginning of no time to this time and beyond for billions of year, whenever it would seem that the planet is doomed, an evolution occurs, there is a great shift and birth of new life.

aries moon

2011-12-31T06:24:00.001-08:00

"Your handwriting. The way you walk. Which china pattern you choose. It’s all giving you away. Everything you do shows your hand. Everything is a self portrait. Everything is a diary." — Chuck Palahniuk

"Resolve to be tender with the young, compassionate with the aged, sympathetic with the striving and tolerant with the weak and wrong. Sometime in your life, you will have been all of these." — Buddha

Listen, listen, listen. Don’t listen to determine if you agree or disagree. Listen to get to know what is true for the person in front of you. Get to know an inner landscape that is different from your own, and enjoy the journey. Remember that if, in any conversation, nothing piqued your curiosity and nothing surprised you, you weren’t really listening

If I am angry with you because your behavior doesn’t fill my model of how you should be, that’s my problem for having models. No expectations, no upset.

"Be curious, not judgmental." — Walt Whitman

"If you can observe alertly, keenly, but without judging, without concluding, you will find that your thinking becomes astonishingly acute. Then you are learning all the time." — Jiddu Krishnamurti

"We are free when we are not the slave of our impulses, but rather their master.

"However distasteful is the bitterness of patience, it will eventually taste delicious." — Rumi

"Do you know what I need? To escape into the mountains, surrounded by tall trees, I will lay on the moss, and breath in the scent of mushrooms, flowers and wet soil." — Le’echappee, LD

2011-12-29T18:08:00.000-08:00

In Living off the Country, John Haines describes a possibly dying capacity amongst humans to experience the world deeply and connect. Haines focuses on the role of the poet to resuscitate a capacity of seeing and a culture of connection.

capricorn sun conjunct pluto

2011-12-29T07:06:00.000-08:00

"By my intimacy with nature I find myself withdrawn from man. My interest in the sun and the moon, in the morning and the evening, compels me to solitude." — Henry David Thoreau

aquarius moon trine jupiter

2011-12-28T11:55:00.000-08:00

We have poisoned the building blocks of the universe. This is the sin of men against Nature.

The people lived as integral parts of the ever-changing elemental biosphere with all its creatures and, of necessity, respected it.

Human psychology views the world as a poetic metaphor

Spiritual ecology

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"Don’t bend; don’t water it down; don’t try to make it logical; don’t edit your own soul according to the fashion. Rather, follow your most intense obsession mercilessly." — Franz Kafka

"Dreaming or awake, we perceive only events that have meaning to us." — Jane Roberts

"My story is not a pleasant one; it is neither sweet nor harmonious, as invented stories are; it has the taste of nonsense and chaos, of madness and dreams - like the lives of all men who stop deceiving themselves." — Hermann Hesse, Demian

Dance in the middle of the fighting. Dance in your blood.

"The whole secret of existence is to have no fear. Never fear what will become of you, depend on no one. Only the moment you reject all help are you freed." — Buddha
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king of swords, temperance, hierophant ~reversed~

2011-12-26T10:07:00.000-08:00

"Many have died; you also will die. The drum of death is being beaten. The world has fallen in love with a dream. Only sayings of the wise will remain." — Kabir

Through his own pain he can understand and appreciate the pain of others and can therefore see further and higher than those who are merely blindly content.

"If you are around people or energies you aren’t comfortable with, see them as offering you opportunities for spiritual growth by teaching you more about becoming transparent. The thoughts and feelings of people you have the most trouble harmonizing with are the very ones that will give you the most growth when you do learn to be transparent to them. That is why you have attracted these people into your life." — Orin

"The only real shot you have at changing the world is by changing the people in the world. You can’t do that by stepping in, acting like a hot shot and telling them what to do. You have to listen to them, understand them, find out what they want, what they need and why they have been hurting so much. And that’s called love." - David Wilcock

"You will automatically begin forgiving, supporting, acknowledging, and appreciating yourself when you do so for others. Healing others is not just a gift you are giving to the world. It is also a gift to you." — Orin

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2011-12-25T13:06:00.000-08:00

Great timber does not grow with ease, the stronger the wind the stronger the trees

Every flower must have its roots in organic rot.

Spring isn’t always comfortable.

Change takes new forms now.

It is your own viewpoint that is presently so limited that it seems to you that physical reality is the rule and mode of existence."
...
you think that your self stops where your skin meets space, Yet your environment is an extension of your self. Your environment is the physical picture of your thoughts, emotions and beliefs made visible.

yule sunrise balsamic moon

2011-12-23T05:46:00.000-08:00

Yule, originating in deep winter cold, is a time of saying farewell to the past year and opening to the new, to changes we may anticipate and those which may take up by surprise, as well as for sending out prayers for wisdom to face the transformations soon to come. We look toward to the future in which the Earth has prepared us to live. we commit to the preparation for the atmospheric change we have never known— we join with a world turned upside down. Welcome Yule!
— Patricia MacAodha

To love oneself is the beginning of a lifelong romance.
-Oscar Wilde

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2011-12-20T06:12:00.000-08:00

Ignorance has prevailed so long only because people do not want to find out the truth. ‘Don’t tell me, you’ll spoil my dinner’ is the usual reply to any attempt to tell someone just how that dinner was produced. But it is not the inability to find out what is going on as much as a desire not to know about facts that may lie heavy on one’s conscience that is responsible for this lack of awareness." — from Earthlings

One who seeks the secrets of nature canot find them by avoiding the realities of death, rot, slime, mud, blood and excrement.

"Now I see the secret of making the best person: it is to grow in the open air and to eat and sleep with the earth." — Walt Whitman

We don’t have to go anywhere to obtain the truth. We only need to be still and things will reveal themselves in the still water of our heart." — Thich Nhat Hanh

"The fear is simply because you are not living with life, you are living in your mind." — Sadhguru Jaggi Vasudev

...However paradoxical this may seem to those who refuse to penetrate to the heart of the matter but prefer its superficialities.

You begin saving the world by saving one man at a time; all else is grandiose romanticism or politics. -Bukowski

dark moon

2011-12-18T06:56:00.000-08:00

The dogs of doom howl and moan

“It’s cool dude, don’t feel pity for me. This was my dream all along. This is the way I wanted my life to go.

It is all one whether he has been happy or not in a life which has consisted merely of a succession of transient present moments and is now at an end

"I’m finished as a human being,’ she said. ‘All you’re looking at is the lingering memory of what I used to be. The most important part of me, what used to be inside, died years ago, and I’m just functioning by auto-memory." - Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

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From this point of view one might indeed consider that the appropriate form of address between man and man ought to be, not monsieur, sir, but fellow sufferer, compagnon de miseres.

dissappointment

2011-12-17T14:09:00.000-08:00

"Today is bad, and day by day it will get worse - until at last the worse of all arrives"

Down, down further into drugs and hate,Black, black masses I am doomed this is my fate.

He discovers adversaries everywhere, lives in continual conflict and dies with sword in hand

"A successful man is one who can lay a firm foundation with the bricks that others throw at him." — Sidney Greenberg

Can you deal with the most vital matters by letting events take their course?

The animal lacks both anxiety and hope because its conciousness is restricted to what is clearly evident and thus to the present moment

Evolutionary emotions and tribal survival

Spiritual pain is conditional upon knowledge

We are living through the end of one era and the birth of a new one

...This feeling will dominate so decidedly over every other that they will not even think it necessary to speak of it but will silently assume it is the basis of their conversation.

For the world is Hell, and men are on the one hand the tormented souls and on the other the devils in it.
- Arthur Schopenhauer

ftw

2011-12-16T05:45:00.001-08:00

On 20 May 1981, Wuornos was arrested in Edgewater, Florida, for the armed robbery of a convenience store. She only got $35 and two packs of cigarettes.
....In 2001, she announced that she would not issue any further appeals against her death sentence
Saying "There's no chance in keeping me alive or anything, because I'd kill again. I have hate crawling through my system...I am so sick of hearing this 'she's crazy' stuff. I've been evaluated so many times. I'm competent, sane, and I'm trying to tell the truth. I'm one who seriously hates human life and would kill again."
... Her final words in the on-camera interview were "Thanks a lot, society, for railroading my ass."

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2011-12-15T06:43:00.000-08:00

Somehow we've come to a time when science is about developing profitable new products for companies instead of developing creative new ideas to benefit people

The socialization of an entire culture is turned over to a soulless medium whose only real purpose is to sell consumer products

We're taught to yearn for a fantasy world and that we should buy whatever it takes to get there
... They create a need in our minds in order to sell a product, rather than creating a product to fill our actual needs

I have scars from the battle - from the media images that bombard me daily that tell me I need to reflect the unattainable perfection to be successful, accepted and happy.

I refuse to continue to fuel the battle with my complacency or accept that the beauty myth is inevitable.

We are right not to accept the universe as it is presented to us by male authority

-- men were taught to adore the weak, cippled woman as a sex object
Strong women threaten men, men wish for woman to be subordinate

Soon you will be able to experience the same bowing down before a rosebush or before a sunset or before the sky full of stars
... because you are aware, I hope you will be able to put the ego aside, just to experiment.

"The social and political situations you currently face, personally and globally, are a series of very intense lessons of discernment. You are all challenged to see through the well-crafted, mind-boggling business of fear that has overrun the planet. Maintaining your faith in a positive outcome for all you encounter every day is not always easy; however, it is important to remember that difficult and challenging experiences precede all worthwhile accomplishments. The choices you make and the risks you are willing to take at this time are essential to the process of strengthening your resolve and waking up to the recognition and application of your personal power. Ultimately, you create all you encounter for very good evolutionary reasons." — The Seven Sisters of Pleiades

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2011-12-14T08:26:00.000-08:00

So, now I shall talk every night. To myself. To the moon… I talk to myself and look at the dark trees, blessedly neutral. So much easier than facing people, than having to look happy, invulnerable, clever. With masks down, I walk, talking to the moon, to the neutral impersonal force that does not hear, but merely accepts my being. And does not smite me down. — Sylvia Plath

)O(

2011-12-14T08:19:00.000-08:00

AEROMANCY divination from the air and sky, particularly concentrating on cloud shapes, comets, and other phenomena not normally visible in the heavens.
ALCHEMY is the practice of transmutation of base metals into precious metals (e.g., gold or silver)
.ALECTRYOMANCY is divination whereby a bird is allowed to pick corn grains from a circle of letters. A variation is to recite letters of the alphabet noting those at which a cock crows.
ALEUROMANCY is divination using “fortune cookies”; answers to questions are rolled into balls of dough and once baked are chosen at random.
ALOMANCY is divination by table salt.
ALPHITOMANCY uses special cakes that are digestible by persons with a clear conscience but are unpleasant to others.
ANTHROPOMANCY is the long-outlawed means of divination by human sacrifice.
APANTOMANCY is divination through chance meetings with animals (e.g., a black cat), birds, and other creatures. Mexico City is said to have been founded where Aztec soothsayers saw an eagle flying from a cactus carrying a live snake.
ARITHMANCY or ARITHMOMANCY is an earlier form of NUMEROLOGY where divination is made through numbers and the number value of letters.
ASTRAGLOMANCY or ASTRAGYROMANCY is a form of divination by dice where the faces of the dice bear numbers and letters.
ASTROLOGY is divination using celestial bodies: the sun, moon, planets, and stars.
AUGURY is the general term for the art of divination and is chiefly applied to interpretations of signs and omens.
AUSTROMANCY is divination by the study of the winds.
AXIOMANCY is divination through the observation of how an ax or hatchet quivers or points when driven into post.
BELOMANCY is an ancient form of divination performed by tossing or balancing arrows.
BIBLIOMANCY involves divination by books.
BOTANOMANCY is divination from burning tree branches and leaves.
CAPNOMANCY is the study of smoke rising from a fire.
CARTOMANCY is fortune telling using cards such as the Tarot.
CATOPTROMANCY is an early form of crystal gazing that utilizes a mirror turned to the moon to catch moonbeams.
CAUSIMOMANCY is divination from behavior of objects placed in a fire.
CEPHALOMANCY refers to divination with the skull or head of a donkey or goat.
CERAUNOSCOPY seeks to draw omens from the study of thunder and lightning.
CEROSCOPY is a form of fortune telling in which melted was is poured into cold water.
CHIROMANCY is divination from the lines on people’s hands.
CHIROGNOMY is the study of the general hand formation.
CLAIRAUDIENCE is “clear hearing” of divinatory information. Parapsychologist generally regard as a form of extrasensory perception.
CLAIRVOYANCE is “clear seeing” of divinatory information.
Parapsychologist generally regard as a form of extrasensory perception.
CLEROMANCY is divination by “casting lots”, similar to dice but with objects such as pebbles or sea shells.
CLIDOMANCY or CLEIDOMANCY is divination using a dangling key.
COSCINOMANCY is divination using a hanging sieve
CRITOMANCY is the study of barley cakes.
CROMNIOMANCY is divination using onion sprouts.
CRYSTALLOMANCY is divination through crystal gazing.
CYCLOMANCY is the practice of divination from a turning wheel.
DACTYLOMANCY is an early form of RADIESTHESIA using a dangling ring.
DAPHNOMANCY requires one to listen to laurel branches crackling in an open fire.
DEMONOMANCY is divination with the aid of demons.
DENDROMANCY is divination with either oak or mistletoe.
DOWSING or DIVINING RODS are methods of divination where a forked stick is used to locate water or precious minerals.
GASTROMANCY is an ancient form of ventriloquism whereby the voice is lowered to a sepulchral tone and prophetic utterances are delivered in a trance state.
GELOSCOPY is the divination from the tone of someone’s laughter.
GENETHLIALOGY is divination by the influence of the stars at birth.
GEOMANCY is the study of figures on the ground and the influence of the Earth’s “currents”.
GRAPHOLOGY is the analysis of character through handwriting.
GYROMANCY is a divination procedure where a person walks in a circle marked with letters until they become dizzy and stumble at different points, thus spelling out a prophesy.
HALOLMANCY see ALOMANCY HIEROMANCY or HIERSCOPY is divination by observing object of ancient sacrifice.
HIPPOMANCY is a form of divination from the stamping and neighing of horses.
HOROSCOPY is the practice of casting of astrological horoscopes.
HYDROMANCY is divination by water including the color, ebb and flow, or ripples produced by pebbles dropped in a pool.
ICHTHYOMANCY is divination using fish.
LAMPADOMANCY is divination using lights or torches.
LECANOMANCY uses a basin of water for divination.
LIBANOMANCY is the study of incense and its smoke.
LITHOMANCY is divination using precious stones of various colors.
MARGARITOMANCY is the procedure of using bouncing pearls.
METAGNOMY is the divination using “visions” received in a trance state.
METEOROMANCY is divination from meteors.
METOPOSCOPY is the reading of character using the lines if the forehead.
MOLEOSOPHY is the study of moles and indicators of a person’s character and future indications.
MOLYBDOMANCY draws mystic inferences from the hissing of molten lead.
MYOMANCY is the study of the prophetic meaning of behavior of rats and mice.
NUMEROLOGY is the numerical interpretation of numbers, dates, and the number value of letters.
OCULOMANCY is divination from a person’s eye.
OINOMANCY is divination using wine.
ONEIROMANCY is the interpretation of dreams and their prophetic nature.
ONOMANCY is the study of the meaning of names.
ONOMANTICS is the application of ONOMANCY applied to personal names, particularly in the sense of occult interpretation.
ONYCHOMANCY is the study of fingernails.
OOMANTIA and OOSCOPY is the method of divination by eggs.
OPHIOMANCY is divination from serpents.
ORNISCOPY and ORINITHOMANCY is the study of omens associated with birds, particularly birds in flight.
OVOMANCY is another type of egg divination.
PALMISTRY is the broad field of divination and interpretation of the lines and structure of the hand.
PEGOMANCY concerns itself with spring water and bubbling fountains and the omens contained therein.
PHRENOLOGY is the long practiced study of head formations.
PHYLLORHODOMANCY is a means of divination whereby one slaps a rose petal against the hand and judges the favorability of the omen by the loudness of the sound.
PHYSIOGNOMY is the study of character analysis through physical features.
PRECOGNITION in an inner knowledge or sense of future events.
PSYCHOGRAPHY is a form of mysterious writing having a divinatory nature.
PSYCHOMETRY is the faculty of gaining impressions from a physical object and its history.
PYROMANCY and PYROSCOPY are forms of divination by fire or flame, often assisted by substances thrown onto the flames.
RADIESTHESIA is the general term for divination using a device such as a divining rod or pendulum. Other forms include “table tipping” which was practiced at the White House in the 19th century, the Ouija board, automatic writing (or superconscious writing), and scrying.
RHABDOMANCY is divination using a stick or wand. These methods were forerunners of the divining rod.
RHAPSODOMANCY is a means of divination using a book of poetry whereby the book is opened at random and a passage read.
SCIOMANCY is divination using a spirit guide, a method generally employed by channelers.
SCRYING is a general term for divination using a crystal, mirrors, bowls of water, ink, or flames to induce visions.
SIDEROMANCY is the burning of straws with a hot iron, the resulting figures having divinatory properties.
SORTILEGE is the casting of lots and the assessment of omens indicated.
SPODOMANCY is divination using cinders or soot.
STICHOMANCY is another form of throwing open a book and selecting a random passage for the purpose of divination.
STOLISOMANCY draws omens from the way people dress.
SYCOMANCY is performed by writing messages on tree leaves; the slower they dry, the more favorable the omen. A modern variation is to write on slips of paper (always including one blank) and rolling them up. They are then held in a strainer over a boiling pot; the first to unroll will be answered.
TASSEOGRAPHY is the reading of tea leaves that remain in a tea cup once the beverage has been drunk.
TEPHRAMANCY is divination by ashes obtained from the burning of tree bark.
TIROMANCY is a type of divination using cheese.
XYLOMANCY is divination from pieces of wood, either from their shape when collected or their appearance while burning…

lunar eclipse

2011-12-11T05:19:00.000-08:00

Encourage stupidity, promote a sense of guilt, promote distraction, or construct artificial problems and then magically, solve them, are just some of the medias tactics.
...“Maintaining public attention diverted away from the real social problems, captivated by matters of no real importance.

billions upon billions of dollars of advertising, magazines, movies, billboards, all geared to make you feel shitty about yourself so that you will take your hard earned money and spend it at the mall
.... For us to have self-esteem is truly an act of revolution and our revolution is long overdue. —Margaret Cho

You try to think with reason but all you can do is scream

and there was a new voice which you slowly recognized as your own, that kept you company as you strode deeper and deeper into the world,

there’s no path that goes all the way. One conversation leads to another. One breath to the next until there’s no breath at all, just the inevitable final release of the burden.

Being truly happy is being in a happy state of mind yet not pushing away or denying our suffering. Our suffering is always there. It’s part of the human condition.

You can not protect yourself from sadness without protecting yourself from happiness. —Jonathan Safran Foer

But I have seen the best of you and the worst of you and I choose both. —Sarah Kay

Love is the ability and willingness to allow those that you care for to be what they choose for themselves without any insistence that they satisfy you." — Wayne Dyer

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2011-12-07T10:49:00.001-08:00

But its no use going back to yesterday
I was a different person then

"I think I am in hell, therefore I am." — Arthur Rimbaud

I call it torture you call it life
A slave to money and everything I despise

Mind Full or Mindful?

Only meditation, only silence, only transcending beyond your mind is going to give you contentment and fulfillment. —Osho

Whatever sorrow shakes from your heart, far better things will take their place." — Rumi

"Many of the faults you see in others, dear reader, are your own nature reflected in them." — Rumi
"I’m interested in the fact that the less secure a man is, the more likely he is to have extreme prejudice." — Clint Eastwood

-masks-
She has blue skin
And so does he
He kept it hid
And so did she
They searched for blue
Their whole life through
They passed right away-
And never knew
-sheil silverstien

There is nobody else other than you; we are all different expressions of one reality,

“I’m simply saying that there is a way to be sane. I’m saying that you can get rid of all this insanity created by the past in you. Just by being a simple witness of your thought processes.It is simply sitting silently, witnessing the thoughts, passing before you. Just witnessing, not interfering not even judging,
... you are not the mind, that you are the witness,

insane death rest in pain

2011-12-02T17:27:00.000-08:00

"What you know you can’t explain, but you feel it. You’ve felt it your entire life, that there’s something wrong with the world.

There's a fire starting in my heart

A man who knows the truth is a man to fear!

All truth passes through three stages. First, it is ridiculed. Second, it is violently opposed. Third, it is accepted as being self-
evident

And maybe these death throes are really birth pains

we’re memories of wilderness and earth

Why take ourselves so seriously. No one else does.

Most mornings, the first thought that entered my head was to put a gun to it. Bang. Problem solved.

Half our troubles come from our consciousness of their existence, so that if we forget their existence, they actually cease to exist. Aleister Crowley, “Diary Of A Drug Fiend”

"Teach kids how to think, not what to think." - Richard Dawkins

Wilson described his work as an "attempt to break down conditioned associations, to look at the world in a new way, with many models recognized as models or maps, and no one model elevated to the truth"
..."Is", "is." "is"—the idiocy of the word haunts me. If it were abolished, human thought might begin to make sense. I don't know what anything "is"; I only know how it seems to me at this moment. — Robert Anton Wilson, The Historical Illuminatus

The only thriving wildlife still barely touched by man is the hot, poorly lit world within himself.

sag new moon~

2011-11-27T07:51:00.000-08:00

Another hurdle to clear, is it all the same?

The pain of every change is forgotten when the benefits of that change are realized.

The best way to predict the future is to create it...

You are not the victim of your circumstances; you are the creator

“Look within in the silenceYour soul is waiting to tell you everything you ever need to know. Alison Stormwolf

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2011-11-26T17:03:00.000-08:00

The best things in life...
ARE SHIT AND I DON'T WANT THEM

Comparing our lives to others is fruitless. We have no idea what their journey is about.

Although these people are a small minority, it is a growing minority, who are part of the eventual tidal wave of increasing consciousness to heal the planet and humanity and bring us to the next paradigm of peace on all levels on the planet

...Asgarda

What we eat is both the cause and result of our level of consciousness.

this illness was very revealing for Proenneke, who decided to devote the rest of his life to the strength and health of his body.

”””

2011-11-26T15:27:00.000-08:00

"I would rather sit on a pumpkin and have it all to myself, than be crowded on a velvet cushion." - Henry David Thoreau

One of the most commonly overlooked spiritual practices is daring to be completely honest with everyone you encounter.

I feel interested rather than uncomfortable in the darkness of my own depths

"Nothing behind me, everything ahead of me, as is ever so on the road." - Jack Kerouac

Where are you on the continuum?
What direction are you heading?

The moon doesn't really change at all it just seems to

If we have intense pleasures, we must also be liable to intense pains.

Let it be seen that you are nothing. And in knowing that you are nothing… there is nothing to lose, there is nothing to gain. What can happen to you?

--AS SOON AS YOU GIVE IT ALL UP, YOU CAN HAVE IT ALL--

Buddha says: Abandon hope, abandon desire. In abandoning hope, in abandoning desire, you will be herenow. Without desire you will be fulfilled. It is desire that is deceiving you. "

"Is it so bad, then, to be misunderstood? Pythagoras was misunderstood, and Socrates, and Jesus, and Luther, and Copernicus, and Galileo, and Newton, and every pure and wise spirit that ever took flesh. To be great is to be misunderstood." - Ralph Waldo Emerson, Self Reliance

we waste energy by attempting to avoid our fears

When you can live with all your opposite qualities, you will be living your total self as the wizard

Knowledge and intention are forces. What you intend changes the field in your favor. Intentions compressed into words enfold magical power. The wizard does not try to solve the mystery of life. He is here to live it

each new moment is another opportunity to learn about the interesting world around us.

the essence of thought transmitted through language.

There is nothing more important to true growth than realizing that you are not the voice of the mind – you are the one who hears it.
Michael A. Singer

A thought is harmless unless we believe it

In the rubble of devastation and disaster are buried hidden treasures. When you look in the ashes, look well

Dystopia - Control All Delete
Click here for power
Click here for sex
Email to make sure I keep all my friends
Double click for comfort
Double click for all
Cyberlord you heard my call

Substitutions for satisfactions which he does not obtain in reality

Energy flows where attention goes

we need to organize a rebellion of all the outcasts punks, goths, skins, hardcore kids, serial killers, metal heads, terrorists, school shooters, anarchists, satanists, mass murderers ect. we have to unite and fuck up the system.

Don’t just fuck the police. Take the police out on a couple dates. Take the police to the movies or a nice stroll in the park. Feed the police some delicious fondue. Make the police fall in love with you. Then, fuck the police. And then out of nowhere, stop taking calls from the police. Ignore the police. Make the police miss you. Make the police cry.

He loves my scars and crazy mind.

I am a forest and a night of dark trees, but he who is not afraid of my darkness, will find banks full of roses under my cypresses. Friedrich Neitzsche

now, apart from her,I sit and wonder what she doesin the darkall vast and alone

Loneliness is the human condition. Cultivate it. The way it tunnels into you allows your soul room to grow. Never expect to outgrow loneliness. Never hope to find people who will understand you, someone to fill that space. An intelligent, sensitive person is the exception, the very great exception. If you expect to find people who will understand you, you will grow murderous with disappointment. The best you’ll ever do is to understand yourself, know what it is that you want, and not let the cattle stand in your way. Janet Fitch ¤

There ain’t nothing like singing your heart out to nobodyAs you fall asleep by the side of the road You know I’ve never felt quite as free or quite as alone Or quite as alone

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Happiness in intelligent people is the rarest thing I know. “ — Ernest Hemmingway

Who will see when the rest are blind

Adopt the pace of nature

"And if your heart isn’t broken by the knowledge of what they are doing to the world we love, then I feel sorry for you. Maybe you’re no longer alive. But if the death of the planet we love makes you cry, then take those tears and turn them into action." - Rod Coronado

"We should meet in another life, we should meet in air, Me and you." - Sylvia Plath.

Everything is energy and that’s all there is to it. Match the frequency of the reality you want and you cannot help but get that reality. It can be no other way. This is not philosophy. This is physics. Albert Einstein

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After enlightenment Buddha was asked, ”What have you attained?” And he laughed and said, ”Nothing – because whatsoever I have attained was already there inside me. It is not something new that I have achieved. It has always been there from eternity, it is my very nature. But I was not mindful about it, I was not aware of it. The treasure was always there, but I had forgotten about it.”

Every person’s deepest ecstasies and fears are old as mankind and common as dirt.

It seemed to me that the great calamity had already manifested itself, that I could be no more truly alone than at this very moment. I made up my mind that I would hold onto nothing, that I would expect nothing.
-Henry Miller, Tropic of Cancer

`- let your mind concentrate on. The new actions so the old ones will wither through lack of attention"

The most profound relationship we will ever have is the one with ourselves."

Remember you are the observer¤
The experiencer experiencing existence

You can live your whole life as a meditation, as the observer witnessing your life.

assumptions based on ones frame of reference,

It has taken time to become as you are and time will be needed to change
And you would watch with serenity through the winters of your grief.

the grave’s but a womband a promise of rebirth brings light to the gloom
'..Samhain is the time of the dying of the crops and of life itself.
This is a time when the earth is going dark,
My moonlit path:

•THIS IS PART OF THE PROCESS•
It wasn’t pretty, but it was real.
» the event was my greatest teacher, and while it took so much away from me, it gave me so much back

Courage is needed to examine and change the structures of our minds

"The ultimate measure of a man is not where he stands in moments of comfort and convenience, but where he stands at times of challenge and controversy. – Martin Luther King, Jr."

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I swear that todayI was born to be living!I was born to be singing!I was born to be fightingbut will somebody sayis this resistance or a costume party?

I am choosing not to be a silent witness

***** Focus your thoughts as to where you want to be, and let every fiber in your body believe in those thoughts. Patiently watch as what you seek, unfolds with clarity in front of you. "

The leaves are changing once again but this time I’m watching them change alone

I think the only thing to do if we happen to get caught in that storm is to throw everything away and start completely anew. Here goes nothing.

I always manage to foretell flaws
Mostly my own
I foretell the ending
Then go and create the cause
Save myself
And end up alone.

My own friends hate my guts, so what? Who gives a fuck?

When everything is lonely I can be my own best friend

for if that which you seek,you find not within yourself,you will never find it without.

But I don’t want comfort. I want poetry. I want danger. I want freedom. I want goodness. I want sin. — Aldous Huxley

Sometimes you climb out of bed in the morning and you think, I’m not going to make it, but you laugh inside — remembering all the times you’ve felt that way. — Charles Bukowski
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victory gardens

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++ Dodge these issues, and the great strength that could be yours will remain just out of reach. Understanding inner motivations, seeing through to the core: that's your real path of power and enlightenment now. +++

your sogging soaking future is my foggy fading past
ask every atom in your body and they’ll surely tell you “friend, i am old as time and older still”

A brief nightly psychosis.
-Dreams pull together material left over from the previous day and fulfill the wish

The only thing we really own is our consciousness;

they say the blind man’s vision is always much clearer cause he can’t focus on what’s in the mirror
"To be nobody-but-yourself — in a world which is doing its best, night and day, to make you everybody else — means to fight the hardest battle which any human being can fight, and never stop fighting." - E.E. Cummings

Febreeze commercial girl with shaved head

(Its easier to float on the surface and not know what's underneath, its just easier) - gene simmons

Stay hungry stay foolish

In my dreams nightmares are the truth
Is it true when they tell me that I'm lying

The grave is the door to your rebirth.

Be careful, lest in casting out your demon you exorcise the best thing in you. - Frederich Nietzsche.

Somewhere, in their upbringing, they were shielded against the total facts of our existence. They were only taught to look one way when many ways exist.

Roseanne: What are you going to do this weekend?
Darlene: Nothing.
Roseanne: Isn’t that what you did last weekend?
Darlene: I’m not finished.

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Become aware of your breath

"Being born a woman is an awful tragedy… Yes, my consuming desire to mingle with road crews, sailors and soldiers, bar room regulars - to be a part of a scene, anonymous, listening, recording - all is spoiled by the fact that I am a girl, a female always in danger of assault and battery. My consuming interest in men and their lives is often misconstrued as a desire to seduce them, or as an invitation to intimacy. Yet, God, I want to talk to everybody I can as deeply as I can. I want to be able to sleep in an open field, to travel west, to walk freely at night…" - Sylvia Plath

A time when there is much in the window but nothing in the room

values authenticity over tact,

Balance restores health.

Curious nonjudgemental observation

Break free from the feeling that you need to please and appease in order to keep someones interest. If you do, then that person is only with you for what you give, and won't stick around once their needs change.

The corporate revolution will collapse if we refuse to buy what they are selling
They need us more than we need them.” — Arundhati Roy

We are no longer our 'natural' selves, but rather our "conditioned" selves

Damaged people are dangerous. They know they can survive." - Josephine Hart

"Cursed is the ground because of you; through painful toil you will eat of it all the days of your life. It will produce thorns and thistles for you, and you will eat the plants of the field. By the sweat of your brow you will eat your food until you return to the ground,

Rituals bring meaning to our lives by "charging" an intention with power.

He never spoke aloud and he never touched money

A defense mechanism is a mental process or reaction that shields a person from undesirable or unacceptable thoughts, feelings or conclusions that, if accepted, would create anxiety or damage ones self esteem

Facing reality requires courage and taking risks because giving up one's defences means sacraficing safety

The world is a mirror of myself dying

People fear death even more than pain. It’s strange that they fear death. Life hurts a lot more than death. At the point of death, the pain is over. " - Jim Morrison

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One day the poor earth will have nothiong left to eat but the rich

May your search through nature, lead you to yourself

"So many people are shut up tight inside themselves like boxes, yet they would open up, unfolding quite wonderfully, if only you were interested in them." - Sylvia Plath

¤• The world around you is a reflection, a mirror showing you the person you are.

We live in a house of mirrors and think were looking out

If you're not outraged, you're not paying attention

Destruction is a form of creation. The Earth and all of us are going through a period of cleansing, don’t let destruction get you down.

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Yoga psychology
http://v-radio.org/videos

"When the earth is ravaged and the animals are dying, a new tribe of people shall come unto the earth from many colors, classes, creeds, and who by their actions and deeds shall make the earth green again. They will be known as the warriors of the Rainbow " � Old Native American Prophecy

Nobody questions it—everybody is too fat and distracted.

There is no escape, Nature means what she does

Choose a creek, river, or other natural area to care for, restore, and protect. Do this on a regular basis.

Anxiety hangover

Rather than focusing exclusively or dominantly on problems, your eye turns toward possibility.

Those who are not recognized in their time believe that this is a sign of their own true genius

¤¤I don't owe prettiness to anyone
> I’m not here to please you.

No gods
No masters
No boyfriends

Guarded against further disappointment

Discomfort may accompany fuller awareness

Strength throught hate
People before profit

Art should disturb the comfortable and comfort the disturbed.

Don’t allow the troubles to get the best of you. Instead, allow those troubles to make the best of you.

Tranquility coupled with insight
'Meditations on you personal and spiritual harvest.

The healthiest person is depicted as one who has very few defense mechanisms that sheild him from unsavory asepects of the hidden personality
~this healthy person will not need to invest much energy in keeping out unconcious motives/fears/memories from concious awareness (and will be therefore more broad-minded, or 'less-defended'.

Enlightenment - so that nothing of the self remained in the dark - hidden from awareness

Rjection of the dark side is a neurotic 'divison of personality, and hostility between concious or unconcious.'

-awareness of fears often discouraged because it causes pain

Eyes trained in knowledge

Optimum psychological health ("ego strength") is evidenced by full integration of the unconcious within the realm of awareness

Reduction of tension through healthy relaxation methods
And replacement of dysfunctional breathing patterns

Your outlook on life tends to be very personal and rather self-centered. Your own self-expression, self-actualization and self-realization interests you more than anything else. You feel that if you do your best where you are, the rest of the world will take care of itself."

That this life without goal
Makes you want to cry
So you smoke - to save your soul
And help your spirit fly

The world seems extremely confused and agitated, as though full of terrified screams and gloom. It is full of the sound of howls, as though it were being colonized by ghosts.

The buddha is often depicted in naked meditationwith but one hemp seed for nurturance

I saw that my life was a vast glowing empty page and I could do anything I wanted." - The Dharma Bums, Jack Kerouac

All diet,yoga,meditation practice was towards a balanced autonomic nervous system, which is health
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"The only people who ever get any place interesting are the people who get lost." - Henry David Thoreau

A defense against the experience of feeling
---most people avoid awareness by restricting their breathing

"We often forget that WE ARE NATURE. Nature is not something separate from us. So when we say that we have lost our connection to nature. We’ve lost our connection to ourselves. " � Andy Goldsworthy

"The tragedy is the American situation where a man has to be a winner. Nothing else is acceptable." - Charles Bukowski

If you do not empty yourself you cannot refill
>Energy must move. What is pushed down and rejected – denied – will go somewhere.

“Unless we do conscious work on it, the shadow is almost always projected; that is, it is neatly laid on someone or something else so we do not have to take responsibility for it.

Because women feel inclined to keep themselves ‘small,’ they carry with them large shadows. Because we are afraid to own the contents of our shadows, we cannot become whole. Because we do not own them, they possess us

"At eighteen, I was just a clone, totally unconscious. I didn't know that the air was polluted and I didn't care. I just went to work and thought that everything the Government told me was right and true. It took some time before I awakened. I became aware. It was difficult because my parents weren't seeing the same things, but I knew I had to change my life."

i love jesus because jesus was a dirty homeless hippie peace activist

They want us to :
Stay stupid,
Stay in fear
Buy

Your life emit eternal stench
Stop submitting to society, those standards aren’t real.

»"America will never be destroyed from the outside. If we falter and lose our freedoms, it will be because we destroyed ourselves." - Abraham Lincoln

The humiliation of having to follow rules, of having to sell our lives away to buy survival, of seeing our usurped desires transformed into abstractions and images in order to sell us commodities fills us with rage. How long will we put up with this misery?" - Feral Faun

- see a better world built on the ashes of this one

"The heart is like a garden. It can grow compassion or fear, resentment or love. What seeds will you plant there?" - Buddha

A soul mate’s purpose is to shake you up, tear apart your ego a little bit, show you your obstacles and addictions, break your heart open so new light can get in, and make you so desperate and out of control that you have to transform your life."

He who has knowlege has sorrow

Many people are so imprisoned in their minds that the beauty of nature does not really exist for them

"Let me tell you this: if you meet a loner, no matter what they tell you, it’s not because they enjoy solitude. It’s because they have tried to blend into the world before, and people continue to disappoint them." - Jodi Picoult

funeralfrost: Hey guys, it’s Saturday! Guess what I’ll be doing? Nothing! Won’t talk to anyone, won’t see anyone, just me in the house all day and all night, with music! Because my life, is worth nothing! Anyone want to volunteer to put me out of my misery?

FOOD

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Raspberry Vanilla Fruit Leather 1 pint of raspberries (or more, you can use as many as you want)1 vanilla bean, seeds scraped1/4 teaspoon pure vanilla extract1/4 cup of honey (more or less to taste) Place raspberries in a blender and blend until liquified. If you don’t want seeds in your leather, strain the raspberry puree through a fine mesh sieve using a spatula to force the juice through. Pour the seedless puree back in the blender. Add the vanilla seeds, extract and honey and blend until well mixed. Taste the puree to see if it needs more honey. Place parchment paper on a cookie sheet. Pour mixture onto parchment paper and spread evenly until it is about 1/4 of an inch thick. Dehydrate for 4-6 hours (or until completely dry at the lowest temperature possible. (usually 145F or so) Once dry, use a pizza cutter, or scissors, roll up and enjoy! ______________________________
Dandelion honey
Ingredients: • About 250 dandelion tops • 1 lemon • 4 cups water • 2 pounds organic cane sugar Preparation: 1. Place the dandelion tops in 4 cups of water, bring the water to a boil, then cover and simmer for an hour. Let cool and place in the refrigerator overnight for the dandelions to continue to steep in the water 2. The next day, strain the tops from the water using a cheesecloth/muslin - squeeze out every bit of liquid! Mix the dandelion-water with 2 lbs of sugar and the freshly squeezed juice of 1 lemon. Simmer for about 2 hours, until the water evaporates. 3. After 2 hours, a froth should form on the surface of what is now syrup. Take the syrup off of the heat and let cool. It should thicken as it cools. 4. Yields a little more than a cup.

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Homemade vanilla extract If you love to bake like I do, this is a super-easy little project to make some vanilla extract. It’s also much less expensive than store-bought! • 3-4 whole vanilla beans (preferably organic) • 1 cup vodka, brandy or bourbon Split the vanilla beans lengthwise with a small knife, leaving the seeds inside intact. Place them in a jar, cover with alcohol, and cap tightly. Store in a cool, dark place and agitate the mixture by shaking the jar daily for 4-6 weeks. You can infuse the vanilla beans for as long as you would like, and add new beans to make a stronger extract. Once the flavor of the extract has reached the desired strength, strain the vanilla beans out and bottle the resulting extract. Vanilla extract will last indefinitely, and will become even more aromatic and flavorful as it ages!

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Chickweed pesto This pesto is a delicious and healthy way to get more iron & calcium in your diet! • 2-4 crushed cloves of garlic • 1/2 cup cold pressed olive oil • 2-3 cups freshly picked young chickweed leaves • 1/4 cup freshly grated parmesan cheese • Dash of sea salt Place oil, garlic and salt in a blender along with half of the chickweed leaves. Blend well before adding the other half of the leaves. When you’ve finished blending, it should be a good consistency and a little runny. Pour into a bowl and add desired amount of cheese! _______________________________

Easy dandelion cookies Ingredients: • 1/2 cup oil • 1/2 cup honey • 2 eggs • 1 teaspoon vanilla • 1 cup unbleached flour • 1 cup dry oatmeal • 1/2 cup dandelion florets (You need to remove the florets from their base. Hold the florets with one hand and pinch the green flower base very hard with the other, give a little twist and that should do it.) Preparation: Preheat oven to 375°F. Blend oil and honey and beat in the two eggs and vanilla. Stir in flour, oatmeal and dandelion florets. Drop the batter by teaspoonfuls onto a lightly oiled cookie sheet and bake for 10-15 minutes

-Sweet Banana Flat BreadIngredients:Whole wheat flour 2 cupsMashed bananas 1 cup (about 2 bananas)2-3 tbsp of oil (I used 1 tbsp and olive oil spray for the pan while it cooked)Salt (I used a pinch)Water (I didn’t use any water and am not sure what you need it for. Maybe you may need it if your dough is to stiff. Mine was just right).Directions:Peel and mash the bananas well. Combine mashed bananas, whole wheat flour, salt and make a stiff dough. Add the oil and kneed well. Make the dough into small ball, dust them with flour and roll them out into circles with a rolling pin.Heat a griddle. When hot lightly grease with oil. Place the flat bread on the griddle. When small bubbles appear on it, turn it over to the other side. When this side starts to change color, apply a couple of drops of oil, spread well and turn over. Apply a little more oil on this side as well. Your flat bread is ready when small red spots appear on it. Do not over heat the griddle as this might burn them.

Vanilla Almond Milk (see also how to make nut & seed milks) • 1 cup almonds (soaked overnight) • 3-4 cups purified water • 6 dates (soaked 4 hours) • 1/2 tsp. ground vanilla bean Blend almonds, water, dates and vanilla at high speed until creamy. Strain using a nut milk bag or fine sieve. Serve over sprouted cereal, gRAWnola, in smoothies or alone. For a delicious egg-nog alternative, simply add nutmeg, ground cloves, a banana & pinch of salt!

Pears chammomile tea and spices

2 lemons
6 cloves
2 chammomile tea bags or 1 tbsp tea leaves
Boiled water
2 cinnamon sticks
Pinch of freshly grated nutmeg
1-3 tbs honey
3 oz whisky
Cut a lemon into slices and stud the skin of each slice with the cloves. Put tea bags, hot water, cinnamon, nutmeh and lemon slices in a saucepan and simmer for 2-3 minutes
Squeeze juice from remaining lemong. Take mixture off heat and add lemon juice, honey and whisky. Strain tea intro 2 glasses and drop a lemon slice and cinnamon stick into each.

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And he took grim pleasure in exciting aversion rather than the esteem of his few acquaintances

Living off the wastes of capitalism
life itself should be maintained at minimal cost, while all things beyond what is necessary for these should either be tempered by moderation or completely avoided

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Keep it green
•} das Es; Thanatos
Freud considered that emotionally difficult period to have been the most creative period of his life.

You are the vermin, human excretment, septic waste (race)

cash ruins everything around me
The great depression is our lives.
madness is the price we pay for being human

Dope Sick
"punks are just angry hippies"
recognize the teacher in a humble disguise.
The more problems we have the smarter we became

im alone and i am the only one who can guide my happiness.
I love man not less... But nature more

You're enslaved by money
...I don't pay.

The monasteries thus tended to become local centers of medical knowledge, and their herb gardens provided the raw materials for simple treatment of common disorders.

The circle around a pentagram (transforming it in to a pentacle) is a symbol of "unity, wholeness, infinity, the goddess, and protection.
~ The five-pointed star is representative of the four primal elements (earth, air, fire and water,) and traditionally a fifth, called spirit. The circle binds them together to create life.

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By sortilege, or tea leaves, riddle the inevitable With playing cards, fiddle with pentagrams Or barbituric acids, or dissect The recurrent image into pre-conscious terrors

##animals evolved a tendency to seek out bitter plant parts in response to illnes
... learned by observing that sick animals change their food preferences to nibble at bitter herbs they would normally reject
- self-medication by animals in the wild

•••••The use of herbs and spices in cuisine developed in part as a response to the threat of food-borne pathogens. Studies show that in tropical climates where pathogens are the most abundant, recipes are the most highly spiced. Further, the spices with the most potent antimicrobial activity tend to be selected
>Roman medicinal practices, as preserved in the writings of Hippocrates and - especially - Galen, provided the pattern for later western medicine.
»»• De Materia Medica ; Historia Plantarum,

materia medica

Hildegard of Bingen. A twelfth century Benedictine nun, she wrote a medical text called Causes and Cures.

¤¤ The goal of Freudian therapy, or psychoanalysis, was to bring repressed thoughts and feelings into consciousness in order to free the patient from suffering repetitive distorted emotions.
.... the bringing of unconscious thoughts and feelings to consciousness is brought about by encouraging a patient to talk in free association and to talk about dreams.
^“- a strong ego and the ability to delay gratification

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Big Brother’s busy holding your attention every moment you’re awake. He’s making sure you’re always distracted With everyone’s imagination atrophied, no one will ever be a threat to the world." Lullaby, Chuck Palahniuk

Yes that’s right, punk is dead. It’s just another cheap product for the consumers head. Ain’t for revolution, it’s just for cash

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LIVE FREE OR DONT
You stand under me if you don't understand me

How dim our eye!The present moment terminates our sight

Rocks, deserts, frozen seas, and burning sands:Wild haunts of monsters, poisons, stings, and death.Such is earth's melancholy map! But, farMore sad! this earth is a true map of man

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Excision
Jörmungandr-Midgard serpent

Dozing man•
The world does everything wrong on purpose
Chaos: the road to freedom
Sell your clothes and keep your thoughts
All other things are useless or only useful for useless ends
Return again to the primordial nothingness

MASSA-FUCKIN-CRETTS Skate Thrash Crust Junk!
Massacretts/ The Invention of Solitude, Paul Auste
"The silverado squatters"
Robert Louis Stevenson
"The Pretensions of Poverty," by seventeenth-century English poet Thomas Carew.

Overcivilization...
Thoreau urges Field to live a simple but independent and fulfilling life in the woods, thereby freeing himself of employers and creditors. But the Irishman won't give up his aspirations of luxury and the quest for the American dream.
Walden emphasizes the importance of solitude, contemplation, and closeness to nature in transcending the "desperate" existence that, he argues, is the lot of most people

"I never found the companion that was so companionable as
solitude." Thoreau

What men already know instinctively is true humanity.

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My anger is my best friend

This one? for the world: I hate you.
:::::what good is a long life to us if it is hard, joyless and so full of suffering that we can only welcome death as a deliverer?

A Profound Hatred of Man
Shai Hulud

Promise Nothing
Offer Nothing
Expect Nothing
Need Nothing
Hype Nothing Just let quality sell by itself
Change Nothing
And within minutes had embarked for lunar eternity
Be Nothing

ΔΩ

Numbing the pain for a while will make it worse when you finally feel it.

{Release from society and return to nature}
...Man being the most horrid of all animals is corrupted by the ego

We rejoice in negative energy

Jean-Paul Sartre, Being and Nothingness, 1943

Accept the shortcomings of others
.. the ability to acknowledge one’s mistakes, imperfections, gaps in knowledge, and limitations

Everyone is a genius. But if you judge a fish on its ability to climb a tree, it will live its whole life believing its stupid. – Albert Einstein

resisting self-defeating impulses and at persisting in beneficial activities that lack immediate appeal.
Control ones appetites
It is not always soothing to hear and see everything
•• Temperance is generally defined by control over excess, involves restraining some impulse

igniting a firestorm of excitement fueled by frustration or a brilliant new idea
What if all I have is my suffering
»»if we want to be free from problems, we must transform our mind

place hard work before reward
NOBODYS DOING ANYTHING WORTHWHILE
moving along I’m moving towards, Nothing, Screaming out screaming so loud I’m screaming for, Nothing.

the possibility that one of the best ways to undo someone’s weakness is by encouraging his or her strengths.

“Sometimes I feel I’m scared to live. Living is what scares me. Dying is easy. Getting up every day and going through this again and again is hard.” — Charles Manson, 1981

Hell is empty and all the devils are here - william shakespeare

Say less, hope less...
Nordic nature, solitude, hatred

-every man compelled to consume so much a year in the interest of industry
....You can't consume much if you sit still and read books

*A focussing of interest, a narrow channelling of impluse and energy

And what makes it worse she thinks of herself as meat

Hospital music; lucky enough to of had a lobotomy

for a world that prostitutes itself.Not a minute more of degeneration.Words cannot express my disappointment.Words cannot express my disapproval.So I hate.I hate a world that’s capable of triumphWhy should I strive for acceptance and peace of mind.
- A Profound Hatred of Man Shai Hulud

Impluse arrested spills over,
And the flood is feeling,
The flood is passion,
The flood is even madness
And it depends of the force of the current, the height and strength of the barrier

...All the crosses had their tops cut and became Ts

. Such practices would predispose a child to turn to external sources of validation for a sense of security

Its going to get worse
Society is a realm of synthetic, isolating, impoverishing estrangement.

Demons: Baal, belphegor
[New Low- last of the rats
Look back and laugh
Sorry excuse - listen w prejudice
Extortion

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••I'm not done getting better.••

Let's just say I was testing the bounds of reality - Jim Morrison

:::::The hermit turns his back on the world and refuses to have anything to do with it; but one can do more than this! One can try to re-create the world, to build another in its place, one in which the most intolerable features are eliminated and replaced by others that accros with ones desires ::::::

it was only when your world was threated with destruction that you became what you are now.
As much success as I could pull out of defeat
;;;;; I'm not telling you its going to be easy, I'm telling you its going to be worth it
..Sense of self belonging to the years of maturity

I don’t care if people hate my guts; I assume most of them do
>The most highly developed species evolved from the lowest
`•• A tendency arises to detach from anything that may give rise to unpleasurable experience
If things are too painful, or too frightening our brains block them
» your fear of being hurt motivates you to withdraw into the safety of your own private world.
::::: feel that any form of rejection,, ridicule, humiliation or grief would be personally intolerable. Consequently, they create a wall of invulnerability, become enclosed in their own worlds, and prefer to maintain control over their circumstances. They avoid being hurt at all costs.

Nancy: If I asked you to kill me, would you? Sid: I don't know. How would I do it? I couldn't live without ya.

sometimes I think it wouldn’t have been as tough if I didn’t make all these mistakes because of my lack of experience

Nattramn / Silencer

Philosohpy defined as the finding of bad reason for what one believes by instinct

Be Nothing
one of beauty that is imperfect, impermanent and incomplete What fun it would be if one didn't have to think of happiness among the miseries of space and time

Their sadness was a symptom of their love for one another

And within minutes had embarked for lunar eternity

Dark art for the satanic elite
The direction of my work is yet to fully reveal itself to me but finally the pieces are coming into place

I'd rather be unhappy than have a sort of flase lying happiness
.... It hasn't been very good for happiness, but its been very good for truth

There is nothing good or bad, but thinking makes it so
-hamlet shakespeare

!!!!Irrational belief may involve exagerated needs to be approved of by everyone and to avoid any situationin which negative apprasisal from others might arise
----»» I CAN STAND IT
You can't hurt me I'm already dead

Where id was there shall ego be
...Our eagles become our vultures

Emotion moves us and reason guides us
engaged in daydreaming or purposefully letting our thoughts wander,

Common addictions:
Alcohol as a social lubriant
Love or the illusion of it
......(SPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, sometimes sexually apathetic, a tendency towards a solitary lifestyle, secretiveness, and emotional coldness
• "asexual, sometimes celibate; free of romantic interests;

basic schizoid defense of not identifying emotionally with the situation
... to avoid the destruction of the self by avoiding the emotion rather than the situation.

Gradually break down the defences that block awareness of unconcious processes
Defensive responses to anxiety

"kill the father" means destroying everything hierarchical, controlling, and restrictive in one's psyche, while "fuck the mother" means embracing everything that is expansive, flowing, and alive in the psyche

Peste noir
Witch-Lord
Two Hunters - Wolves In The Throne Room

described as one of beauty that is “imperfect, impermanent and incomplete”

I beseech you my brothers, remain true to the earth, and do not believe those who speak to you of otherworldly hopes! They are poison-mixers, whether they know it or not.
Thus Spoke Zarathustra, Nietzsche

Ill make smarter mistakes

And within minutes had embarked for lunar eternity

when people I favour reject me it often reveals more about them and their tastes than about me

the “allness” of God denies the reality of sin, sickness, death, and the material world

non compos mentis

“destroyer of confusion,” “destroyer of darkness,” or “annihilator of ignorance.”

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2011-09-11T15:49:00.001-07:00

Koknar

:::You only lose what you cling to:::
To find ourselves we must first lose ourselves

I had an inner drum and I was going to march
Silence is acceptance

the choice of evolution over perfection
```and in my dreams, i am dirty broke, beautiful, and free```
"I see men assassinated around me every day. I walk through rooms of the dead, streets of the dead, cities of the dead; men without eyes, men without voices; men with manufactured feelings and standard reactions; men with newspaper brains, television souls and high school ideas. “ — Charles Bukowski

We’re terrible animals. I think that the Earth’s immune system is trying to get rid of us, as well it should. Kurt Vonnegut

The truth will set you free, but first it will piss you off
Life is just this way, broken, and I am crazy for dreaming of something else."

"It is no measure of good health to be well adjusted to a sick society"
>Do you expect a fool to seeWhat a fix he’s in

...How can you call me stupid when you don't understand what I say

Many men bury themselves into rotting women,
You, single, celibate and rational

----- We have no scar to show for happiness. We learn so little from peace.
Failure is often a steppong stone to success, it points the way
The only time you define your character is when you go without
»»»Metals must undergo extremes of temperature, folding and pounding, but the end product is infinitely superior to impure ore mined from the earth.

Dreads any task he is expected to do well at

A creative outlet for my fucking head

Fear of emotional excessiveness
Exhaustion of easy life

Finding your aloneness you can create, you can be involved in as many things as you want, because this involvement will not anymore be running away from yourself. Now it will be your expression; now it will be the manifestation of all that is your potential.

Dystopia - Stress Builds Character
Coke Bust - Another Fucking Problem
You Pay | Crass
Possessed - The Eyes of Horror
Rotting Out.

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http://anti-politics.net/distro/download/reclaim-rewild-consecutive.pdf

Everything that happens to us is here to help us become more concious

I choose to fight these fucked up rules I refuse to live by what’s expected
--It makes me sad because i thought you were beautiful when you didn’t fit in

A lie which she believes
,, Resort to positive thinking to help them avoid bad feelings inside

an addiction is a means of avoiding emotional (and physical) pain
.....Many will justify their addiciton with all sortys of sensible and laudable explanations, but the truth is that they are avoiding their feelings.

They think self-denial is good for their soul, that it makes them strong and unselflish

Only by facing the truth, and feeling the surpressed feelings can one heal the pain within

The thought of sitting in front of a man behind a desk and telling him that I wanted a job, that I was qualified for a job, was too much for me. Frankly, I was horrified by life, at what a man had to do simply in order to eat, sleep, and keep himself clothed. — Charles Bukowski

the Hermit card reminds us of the value of time away from the hubbub of civic life, to relax the ego in communion with Nature.

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2011-09-11T15:48:00.002-07:00

“I like people too much or not at all.” — Sylvia Plath

Sometimes people try to just make it through a day and not kill themselves, and that’s their activism for right then, because that’s all they have.”

You aren't the only one sick though, some say the Earth is suffering
_________________________________
÷Problems that profit

Are your values and beliefs sustainable?
Are we really going to let a bunch of greedy fools do-in this whole planet?
The concrete laughs back at us
If you accept it, you are accepting death.
It will fall, but will you fall with it?

People before profits
_________________________________

Mind in the gutter, hands in the trash
desiring only to be alone with her books and her music.
Absence of pleasure

Discrepancies between peoples thoughts and actions

Be curious,
Not judgemental
::it is freedome from judgement that will free you from having conflicts in your life
...People create theur situations and experiences from patterns in their subconcious, not from cognitive choice. People will have patterns that manifest and that's okay - just as tigers will bite.

We somatize stress in order to protect ourselves psychically

being wrong is erroneously associated with failure
.. The fact is, there is no such thing as a smart human being, for it is merely a matter of time before their ideas are updated, changed, or irradiated.

»The Sky is Over
“Water and air, the two essential fluids on which all life depends, have become global garbage cans.”
I’m a loyal American and I’m not happy unless I let government and industry poison me a little bit every day.”
The american empire is going to fall put we don't all have to fall with it.
you were pinheads raised merely to serve the established institutions.
our society avoids examining the root causes of behavior.
My disgust is greater than my compassion

“When you awake, you cross a line of no return, and you never see the world in the same way. You are still dreaming - because you cannot avoid dreaming, because dreaming is the function of the mind - but the difference is that you know it’s a dream. Knowing that, you can enjoy the dream or suffer the dream. That depends on you.” From “The Mastery of Love” by Don Miguel Rui

Porn only serves to isolate us and binds users in a fantasy where they can never be truly satisifed
It is a commercialized and enhanced commodification of our most intimate and ecstatic moments reduced to the momentary fleeting feelings of a single organsm.

they learn in childhood to avoid pain by being good, so good that becomes utterly complaint, incapable of expressing opposition to anything.

I told my therapist about you

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2011-09-11T15:48:00.001-07:00

Ø
Death is transformation

If you want to make your dreams come true, the first thing you have to do is wakeup
ready to see with both eyes.
sick of how fake it is.
Remember nature?
The joy of not being sold anything
DO IT YOURSELF
the world doesn’t owe you shit

"Why can't you be decent to people?",
"Fear", I said.

"Never a failure, always a lesson
Its a struggle for a reason

Hurry up and die
Keep your coins I want change
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How to Make a Bicycle into a Record Playe

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New Moon Tattoo

The author is not critical of people because they are blind sheep or mindless sinners, but because they have not challenged their worldview and they are not living lives of enjoyment.
More specifically, Evasion teaches one how to live off of the excesses of the capitalist system without contributing to it. The ethic presented to the reader is one of exploiting the exploiters

Read philosophy extensively until you are thoroughly convinced endearment is nothing more than an unattainable, abstract ideal created in your mind to grow attachment to another living thing in order to feel some sort of arbitrary pleasure.

fuck the high class i’d rather die as scum
Everyone looked young, scrubbed, bland.

Well never give up til everyones slaughtered

All we are is a result of what we have thought. The mind is everything. What we think, we become. -Buddha

I know the difference between conscious minds and dollar signs,
Culture-sickness
Old books in ruined temples

....Do this not because I want to but because someone else does.
I disappoint people and people disappoint me.
Fuck that: Don't work. Be hated.
If you don't like it you can leave me alone¤
You know the typical crowd, “Wow, it’s Friday night, what are you going to do? Just sit there?” Well, yeah. Because there’s nothing out there. It’s stupidity. Stupid people mingling with stupid people. Let them stupidify themselves. I’ve never been bothered with the need to rush out into the night. That’s all. Sorry for all the millions, but I’ve never been lonely. I like myself. I’m the best form of entertainment I have. Charles Bukowski

compromise between a tendency to express certain (tender or hostile) object impulses and the tendency to repress these impulses for fear of rebuff'
Known as being non-conformists, romantics, exiles and brilliant thinkers, their challenge is to inform and balance their intellects with the sometimes irrational promptings of the heart

*********I'm nobodys type.

I made me who i am.
better late than never.
don’t want to be weak again
just because you’re not where you thought you’d be doesn’t mean you’re lost. things didn’t work out or maybe they did.

something you thought you could hold onto...
but don’t you know every moment passes?
just because something ended doesn’t mean it didn’t happen
_____________________________

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2011-09-11T15:47:00.001-07:00

O lead my mind,Lead it through various scenes of life and death;And from each scene the noblest truths inspire

We decide our futures at the quarter Moons

"That's the moment when I discovered that my perception and reality were not always the same,"

I felt the trauma deeply, but I also stepped outside of it," she says. "I had the 'God view'

You have to look at the trauma closely and break down your fear of the memory, so you can start thinking about it differently.

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2011-09-11T15:46:00.000-07:00

harnessing and transmuting primal and obsessive emotions into transformative energies.
-- You can avoid reality, but you cannot avoid the consequences of avoiding reality.

•And all I loved, I loved alone
Half baked

Norway be my grave
...God, but life is loneliness, despite all the opiates,

not make it easy for the student to acquire his wisdom, as it takes time and long contemplation to fathom what he knows.

|¤|
Corporation has no passion sew it yourself
--sell your clothes and keep your thoughts
Spit on trend

>Unlearn capitalism
We've all been raised on television to believe that one day we'd all be millionaires,

Regeneration from destruction

Listen to your body. Talk to plants. Ignore people ¤

Pain over acceptance.
The breakdown of society is occurring.

I'm so modern that everything is pointless
....Change the mood from glad to sadness, play the ghost song baby

::"where id was, ego shall be."

progressive, productive responses and regressive, destructive responses,
(some defenses are necessary, and serve adaptive functions within the psychic economy.)
» a product of inexperience in taking risks

This is what well do with our grieving

No one to worry about and nowhere to go.

Raw-venge
negative emotions, thought patterns, and prejudices that weigh us down like undigested food."

We’re all going to die, all of us, what a circus! That alone should make us love each other but it doesn’t. We are terrorized and flattened by trivialities, we are eaten up by nothing. —Charles Bukowski

There's a vicious circle going on here that can only be broken when the patterns created by negative conditioning are broken. Adjusting one's perceptions and expectations is the key to breaking out of these negative patterns.
> i should file a lawsuit against my parents for conceiving me.

;;::Over-valuing illusions concerning self or others from whom one derives some compensatory reassurance are regressive self-deceptions
\\ flight from reality and meaning

»»: so frustrated and hateful as to be unable to tolerate
hope, the possibility of anyone offering him anything pleasurable or sustaining,
So little is forthcoming, the child
concludes, and with such ill-will toward him, it is better to expect nothing, to want nothing, to spoil and devalue
everything that might be offered.

who will learn from such repeated attempts to form a defence that prevents them from being rejected and from feeling the painful feelings at all.

people with hard Saturn aspects can be quite sarcastic, skeptical, and rigid in manner. This is essentially a defense mechanism designed to protect themselves from harshness in the world.

As far as im concerned the inner city is a huge mental asylum, with thousands, millions of totally insane people chasing after things which dont really exist.
||| What are we chasing and what would we do if we ever got it. Maybe I’ll live in this moment where all I have is all I need.”

-every wednesday 11-6 bayshore
ann shulgin

it’s so easy to judge people by the way they seem to b

"A man may esteem himself happy when that which is his food is also his medicine." -Henry David Thoreau

‡‡
... doomed from the start, that's how I met her
I'm talking to you, my self
This is happening for you, not to you
≠
Bones Brigade
:::I Hate Myself When I’m Not Skateboarding:::

God, but life is loneliness, despite all the opiates, despite the shrill tinsel gaiety of ‘parties’ with no purpose, despite the false grinning faces we all wear. And when at last you find someone to whom you feel you can pour out your soul, you stop in shock at the words you utter - they are so rusty, so ugly, so meaningless and feeble from being kept in the small cramped dark inside you so long. Yes, there is joy, fulfillment and companionship - but the loneliness of the soul in its appalling self-consciousness is horrible and overpowering. — Sylvia Plath

your silence Drives me crazy And the TV Doesn’t help me

Thank it for the role it played in your learning and lovingly release it (with love and gratitude we change, not repression or rejection. We are always where we need to be and each step sets the stage for the next step of growth)!

We’re sorry, we hate to interrupt But it’s against the law to jump off this bridge You’ll just have to kill yourself somewhere else
A tourist might see you and we wouldn’t want that

I’m telling you I want it to work,But I don’t like being hurt.Something’s not right inside,And I can’t always put it aside.

As above, so below

our entire fucking culture makes it almost impossible for a womyn to have self-confidence and yet dudes still expect womyn to have fantastic self-confidence while they perpetuate the same things that make that self-confidence near impossible in the first place

"narcissistic perfection is a
defensive distortion of reality"

“I can accept that everyone has a vice, but I still wonder why is the need to escape is so great.” Punch-realist
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2011-09-11T15:45:00.000-07:00

∞
Lemniscate

Deep-pression : mournings are hell
Käthe Kollwitz- painter
On the Heights of Despair - Corian

Remember that sometimes not getting what you want is a wonderful stroke of luck. Dalai Lama

I sit high on my throne. The king of despair, All alone.
Remove all emotional attatchment

Sure only of the things I don't like
Made queasy by the emptiness of life
Frozen wasteland crust
What are you doing here? Waiting for the day to end

Consenting to be decieved
Complains of hard times because he could not afford to buy a crown, Growth for the sake of growth is the ideology of the cancer cell I aspire to be acquainted with wiser men than this

An American Prayer, Post America
I awake in a sweat from the American dream red-neck burned-out mid-west mind, looking as hideous pale and unclean as corpses WE ARE ALL EQUALLY WORTHLESS I couldn't see the books were on the shelf

Posthuman~
You'll have to excuse me I'm not at my best I lost my interest in self-sabotage. now I'm living on the profits of pride

I speak the truth but I guess that's a foreign language to yall, satisfied with nothgin

http://hugoschwyzer.net/2011/03/31/if-i-were-thinner-id-have-the-right-to-expect-more-on-perfectionism-and-the-scarcity-model/

Consensus majority
Linguistic determinism - we cannot think what we cannot say

Victory in christ: freedom from the lust of the flesh WILL OF THE ARYAN NATION Occultism and the far right

How do you kill something that's already dead
No Future!
IT IS NOT A SIGN OF WEAKNESS TO ADMIT YOUR FAILURES

Sexual selection is evolution
When its allover what a beautiful fucking wreck Degas made headlines by painting prostitutes and ballerinas without trying to perfect them

Wormwood
Antigone. A foil is a character whose personality and attitude is opposite the .... Allegory

Rev 9:6 And in those days shall men seek death,and shall not find it;and shall desire to die, and death shall flee them

Before, when I looked at a piece of blank paper my mind was filled with ideas. Now all I see is a blank piece of paper
I just put my mind elsewhere and imagine someday life will be better

Tempatation to try them that dwell upon the earth. Mass extinction - Ill let you do that but you'll have to deal with the consequences

Recognizing whatever it is about ones life that could not have been done by anyone else

Ease the pain escape reality
Leave the real world behind

Willingness to engage in the sometumes painful process of rehabilitation

I'm sorry if this is your wakeup call
Its a down economy I'm half empty
It is the civilized folk who are the real barbarians

I would sacrafice whatever I could just to fufill my dream

Chronic dissatisfaction
foredoomed by the inexorable advance of progress to inevitable extinction. the argument shifted to a discussion of whether his demise should be considered a desirable or regrettable eventuality

He never really lives because he is always torturing the life out of himself to clutch at wealth and honors which, even if he wins them, will prove to be but glittering illusions It is the civilized folk who are the real barbarians

Golden age of ease and plenty

I am as free as nature first made man,When wild in woods the noble savage ran

Knowing myself, liking myself and not caring if anyone else does

AS HIGH AS YOU SAY
Beneath the crust, shredding moans how happy they are who wake no more, Our waking dreams are fatal
The bell strikes one We take no note of time
prophetic of her end
She died in the church and was buried with her name, nobody came the world is over, start wasting away the end has arrived start struggling The fun is over The creatures try to tip the scales in their favour You’re a scavenger, You’re a maggot You’re living off the corpse of the old world Born dead (to this world) who'll survive troubles entailed by maintaining an extravagant lifestyle tend to outweigh the pleasure of partaking in it those who have escaped domestication and have re-integrated with the wild You can't hurt me I'm already dead reduce one's possessions increase self-sufficiency just sitting around waiting for the day to end the radio chimes tunes of insanity many people would prefer a magic pill instead of trying difficult behavioural changes Tell me your story

Beware what earth calls happiness All, all on earth, is shadow, The land of apparitions, endless is the list of human ills

Being freely touched indicates lower status

the Chinese language carries crisis and opportunity in the same ideogram.

I took the money I was saving for my honeymoon and spent it on a cemetary plot

sitting waiting for Mars, Can nobody hear me

The Value of Voluntary Simplicity (1936)

tireless and profoundly disciplined, however was also rather quiet

The synonyms of all the things that I've saidAre just the riddles that are built in my head

Henry David Thoreau. In his book Walden he advocates simple living and self-sufficiency among natural surroundings in resistance to the advancement of industrial civilization reclaiming skills and developing methods for a sustainable co-existence, including how to feed, shelter, and heal ourselves with the plants, animals, and materials occurring naturally in our bioregions.
simple living can be a reaction to consumerism, materialism and conspicuous consumption

"The unexamined life is not worth living." Socrates

∞

2011-09-11T15:43:00.000-07:00

Sacraficed ones life for the happiness that comes from peace and quiet

STAND IN YOUR TRUTH
I AM NOT THAT
I AM FREE
I AM NOTHING

I believed nothing physical existed. My non-physical mind was the only entity ever to have existed and nothing else would ever exist. I invented everything within this mind
Roman beans: 2-3 cups/ week
Totally not down.

Man belongs to the earth,
The earth does not belong to man

Minds Emptiness Trueness &Freedom

Vain search for relief from self-caused discomfort
Not stimulation but relief of discomfort

Without any regard for the consequences,
As long as we do not truly know ourselves we will follow patterns., act from fear or shame or unacknowledged desires
To deny or block something still keeps it the subject

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I have learned to watch it burn
KEEP IT UGlY

“No one can make you feel inferior without your consent.”- Eleanor Roosevelt. +++++++++++++++the people who judged me only defined themselves.

Creatures of appetite
Men select the most feminie

the natural tendency of the universe to fall apart into disorder

You don't like the clothes I wearI'll shave my head or grow my hair
what makes you look over here
what are you, queer?

I prefer to write about my feelings in my journal rather than face them

6137457888
In dealing with truth we are immortal, A genius of suffering
++++++++++++++++++++++And throught their perserverance yield a harvest

.... At night, after running around, plotting and scheming, our checklist items all crossed out, we paused to think — 'What to do tomorrow?' and the answer was always, 'As we please …

I prefer the beauty of chaos over your ugly perfection

You give me reasons for your ideas All the facts behind your thoughts Tell me of your observations
Xount the number of my faults
genius of suffering, I will build the future with it's ruins
When you hold up something to people usually what they see init is what's inside them in the first place
#kurt Brecht has published four books: Notes From The Nest, The 30-Day Diarrhea Diet Plan, See The Loud Feeling, and Whore Stories,
Henrey david thoreau

"i wake up in the morning with more regrets, im drinking hard just to forget, awh fuck i feel like shit and i dont think its over yet"

"I love allen ginsberg-
Let that be recorded in heaven's unchangeable heart-"
Jack kerouac

2010-04-29T17:30:00.000-07:00

“Is stubborn and strong-willed, once her mind is made up it is impossible to change it. she does not ask for much, so she feels when she does ask her needs should be met.” Unfulfilled hopes have left her feeling uncertain and even a little fearful about the future. Needs to feel secure and avoid further disappointment; fears she will be looked over, lose her position, or lose respect. Has little hope that things will get better in time and her negative attitude leads her to place impossible demands on others or to compromise or bargain.” Emotionally distant even from those closest to her. Current situations force her into compromise and placing her own hopes and desires on hold for the time being. Feels trapped in a helpless situation and is desperately seeking relief. she is able to find pleasure and happiness in sexual activity. “Feels trapped in a helpless situation and is desperately seeking relief. she is able to find pleasure and happiness in sexual activity, as long as there is not a lot of conflict or emotional difficulty.” Is disappointed and let down, feels there is no point in making new goals as they will leave her feeling the same way. Looking for friendly, pleasant relationships with others, who will further develop her intellect. she tries to escape into a fantasy world where things go her way and her desires are easier to reach.”

suicide pact

2010-04-28T17:42:00.000-07:00

Me in my Winnebago with a mug of hot tea and some vicodin in my bloodstream it makes you appreciate things more To some of us the nights are too long, to some the days. No one can challenge the experience of another member This kind of sex mimicry is the worst insult The most beautiful women you see in public none of them are for real they're just men perpetuated their perverted stereotype of women Allowing people to complain about their past At first the more they complained the worst the past would seem but by venting people could start to resolve the past Grow bored Only then could they accept a new story for their lives Move forward To men, a woman is either a virgin or a slut, a mother or a whore. The end begins, Endless suffering, struggle. Please Please Please let tommorrow be better I like my coffee just like my metal I'm not growing up I'm just burning out Please know there are much better things in life than being lonely or liked or bitter or mean or self concious We are full of shit

judgement day, rapture

2010-04-27T01:51:00.001-07:00

My greatest dream is to witness the apocalypse I didn't have guts because every time I stabbed, I didn't die so I just gave up Well I’ve been working on becoming what I am In this bus terminal bathroom And these days I dream like I live off trash and scammed greyhound passesWhy don’t I take a shower ya wonderI guess what I can’t smellI just can’t rememberSo I’m doing my best to smell just like this basement foreverForever-er-er-er-er-erWell isn’t hitchhiking dead they all askNot as long as I’m still broke and breathing Don't worry about me I'm grown bitch Those who can, do Those who can't, gripe Imply you're the kind of sexual partner they might want To become a household name all you needs a rifle - so I'm not forgotten so my life isn't wasted Our devil commands us We're just meat about to go bad I think she dreams a lot Life is merely a fantasy draped in confusion. Praise Jesus, praise Him Prepare for the end of days, consider yourself warned.

rotten

2010-04-24T20:45:00.001-07:00

Dear everything,
Our world is a dream, infinetely fake A nightmare. Your life - your preening and struggle and worry its all pointless. All your problems and love affairs they're an illusion Now you can o visit her in some fleabag motel, public housing on social security for a complete mental depression Certainly I went to Hell. At this hour, what is dead is helpless, kind and helpless. While the Lord lives In the evening corpses were my companions, and I myself almost a corpse. The next day it was the same He said: “I am dying.”I said: “But aren’t all of us dying.” I came here to die I am governed by terror, sleeplessness, nostalgia Mother of God helps me out with my daily chores God always has perfect timing Yes terrible things happen but sometimes those terrible things they save you The holes in their clothes still leaking warm blood No matter how black the future looks all your troubles could be dissappeared tommorrow, From this high up you'd almost want to live Nobody felt how her heart jumped off a cliff at that moment. Now she's trying to cut off peoples tongues to infect them with parasites. Turn objects into people, people into objects Welfare queens I hope I'm dead by the time you read this.

2010-04-24T11:54:00.000-07:00

Yesterday don't mean shit cause tommorrows a day you have to face Who benefitted from the murder Exclude outside reality and build your own ACCEPT SUFFERING and you'll never suffer again Deathcamp cheekbones I adore toxic waste oil spills and serial killers speed up our suffering Fast track to enlightenment Found dead in a trailer park belly full of vicodin and prozac Hang yourself on a playground fence After all those years as the centre of attention hess a bit of a loner but he's happy She grew up on the side of the road where church bells ring Anxiety habituates to exposure It has to be foreign object free I am sick of all this non existant bullshit my mind makes up Deepseated desire for revenge because of their origional defeat Viewed women as defected menThey could do this for the rest of their lives Inimidation by odour Safe in their poverty Anytime after ten on a friday night under the ramps of a bridge Poverty is the new wealth anoniminity is the new fame Being absent is the new being present Nothing more happens more nothing happens Do not allow yourself to be controlled by circumstance you'll always be controlled by the world Moses needed to teach the slaves how to control their own lives Buy flowers for my grave Every challenge creates opprotunity The only roadblocks are mental roadblocksOr they drift and deteriorate, let themselves go to pieces unable to do any consistent work they take to drink gambling whoring All despair is fundamentally a despair of being ourselves Love in our civilization is so rarely a genbuine affection, maltreatment and betrayal abound Love to Secure affirmation for ones idealized image I'm always looking for what's not to like By now you're already running from flophouse to flophouse In apartments where rock stars have overdosed You cannot be the person they know and the great, glorious person you want to become not at the same time I accept chaos Don't laugh,but Save the planet kill yourself Work buy consume die Nothing to do nowhere to go Lack of pizza and sex

2010-04-20T07:36:00.001-07:00

Page of Cups A youthful boy with the promise of life and love at his feet A message of love coming to you Seduction by a younger person possible Someone trying to charm you A love of beauty and imagination Puppy love Innocence A young person at the beginning stages of a new relationship Possible over excitment in love New social contacts are possible

2010-04-18T20:08:00.000-07:00

Knights of Swords Swift action Willingness to fight the good fight This person may jump in before they have the whole truth A person who believe might is right no matter what the consequences Arrogance You may be too narrow minded in this situation Someone is trying to get your attention You are focusing only on a small piece of the puzzle without considering the big picture

2010-04-17T12:10:00.000-07:00

Two of Swords Blinded to the truth of a situation Blocked from seeing what is needed to go forward An impasse or stalemate without possibility of continuing Remain calm and do not get defensive Take a step back before plowing ahead as someone is not seeing things the way you do A possible block on the horizon to your plans A warning sign Someone is stifiling you

2010-04-16T09:16:00.000-07:00

The Star Hope and Inspiration Realization of dreams and goals possible now Whatever venture you are involved in, your lucky stars are with you Positive energies flowing freely into your life Make the most of the now Heavenely influences surrounding you Blessings are flowly freely like water Abundance and spirit present Bright promises The presence of the Holy Spirit is with you A good time to being a new project or new realtionship as it has carries blessings with it

2010-04-14T21:22:00.001-07:00

Six of Swords Reversed A move into a new situation is not advisable at this time Stop what you are doing and look around Possible arguments will ensue as you have been ignoring a situation thats been building up Conflicts and strife Youve been slow at making a decision and others are ready to take the lead Thoughtlessness and no regard for others feelings

2010-04-14T20:50:00.001-07:00

I fuck to come not to concieve We never learn Women are less in control of their lives than men The demons are with me Fear of being less than perfect Tend to have shallow emotional relationships because of their tendency to hold others to equally unrealistic standards I grew up the hard way Goal directed activity Avoidant I don't like how easily everything can be faked Sliced punks on meathook Your god is your chains reject your god reject your system do you really want your freedom Your birth is a mistake you'll spend your whole life trying to correct For worse or better Don't expect others to give your life meaning I never know if I'm dressing for myself for other women or for a man Victory meant a soft bed and an easy life I have a positive outlook on death He couldn't decide which he liked better whiksy or dope At least have the guts to live up to the consequences A person who dresses in black constantly is seen as being neurpotic and morbid trying to convey an impression of menace and threat Ohlin committed suicide, leaving a suicide note that read "sorry for all the blood".Before the shows, Dead used to bury his clothes into the ground so that they could start to rot and get that "grave" scent Honestly, I don't think he was enjoying living in this world."You feel like you're doing something to address the problem but really you're not, why bother? It occured to him that if he died that night he would die happy If I wanted to sit in a bar all day I could Relief does not exist I'm not even able to take care of myself so don't expect me to be able to do much elseThe pursuit of upper middle class domestic perfection While not so subtly tying your self worth to the sheen on your bathroom tile I have the biggest cock in the building I can be complete on my own The true attacthment was to the story of her disappointment In the end its never what you worry about that gets you Eastside westside suicide Scumfuck tradition

2010-04-13T08:45:00.000-07:00

Eight of Cups Reversed Stay where you are, this is not the time to be searching for anything or to go on a trip Patterns need to be broken Rules of relationship have been broken and need redefining Time to let others help you as you cannot do this alone The journey you thought you had to take is uncertain Perhaps everything will be okay

2010-04-12T17:40:00.000-07:00

King of Swords An articulate and intellectual man who is very capable in leading others in business and life A mentor or elder statesman This man is a good politician as well as a good candidate for the priesthood Possessing a Solomon-like wisdom and commanding authority A man of high moral standards and principles This is someone you can trust in all things A rule follower Commited to the greater good of all

2010-04-11T13:21:00.000-07:00

The Page of Swords Someone needs to right a wrong Treatment of things equally Be fair and acknowlegde someone else may know more than you Remain steadfast in your beliefs, but think everything through Go forth bravely, having the courage of your convictions New education pursuits are possible A champion may be coming to your recuse Looking backward A time of caution

2010-04-11T00:16:00.000-07:00

alcoholocaust Mindset of annihilation My mom did the best she could but I was just like fuck this I'm going skating Jesus loves dirty ghetto kids My secret does not own me anymore Sometimes I think it was better being locked up I think I'm beautiful and I'm willing to wait for someone who agrees

Dimebag

2010-04-10T14:55:00.000-07:00

Out on the streets for a living Doomed to fail Her life was pale In hers I can see all the faults of her class Set and setting i felt so cozy in my body with heroin running thru my veins i was all excited to finally get the chance to feel the effect that has gotten thousands of people addicted and killed We ended up going on tour with The Dead. We would go from city to city and visit their ghettos. I called it dope tour I wouldn't go to school without trippin. I wanted to get to the highest state of spiritual enlightenment as possible. I would sit by myself and study everything Dope f(r)iend For those about to rock Acidity everyone is unattractive to someone You look like you're asking for it

2010-04-09T17:05:00.000-07:00

How do you want people to see you I would like to see if erin andrews could dance her way through a hail of bullets Community of christ Stay in the shithole just climb higher so it doesn't stink so bad Lacking in authority and trustworthiness since their genuine apperance was masked by artifice A lonley neglected girl living in squalor Without any wide living or drinking 80% of the time do the right thing 20% go wild I slept most of the day away Escape avoidance Calming effect and induce sleep The woman fills the costume Hatred would of been easier with hatred I would know what to do There's no hope I am what I am how could I get rid of myself? Weed out the losers and reward the victors Have you ever been with a girl who made you want to quit the rest of your life? Did you ever say, “I want to quit my life and just fuckin’ snort you? If you charged me $10,000 to fuck you, I would start selling all my shit just to keep fucking you666metalhead420 Human=garbage like a trucker drinking while you should be sleeping Leadershit Kids make bad decisions that's what teens do Reach for your gun Sometimes I feel like I live in grand central station What's your payback My parents are going to freak out when they realize I've been shot to death Their goal: save 100 souls I come from a family of car salesman Those dumb punk kids will buy anything

2010-04-07T08:58:00.000-07:00

Six of Swords Time to travel, perhaps near or to water. Move to a new area A change of pace and scenery A slowing down This part of your journey needs reverence and thought Pick up the pieces and move on Regained health, but its been slow process, Take slow methodical steps Keep your chin up this is a time of recovery Sadness, but not depression Coping Hope is renewed

2010-04-06T08:56:00.000-07:00

Seven of Swords Time to consult with others You are a truthful person but others do not always want to hear the truth Honor and willingness to stay and face the music You will not run from a situation just because it is uncomfortable Someone needs to know that you are there for them Someone has the wrong ideas about you you need to set things right

2010-04-05T08:20:00.000-07:00

Two of Swords Reversed You have dropped your defenses Caution is needed as you are vulnerable to an attack Unforseen news that is not good is coming A mental imbalance or upset Rushing in without knowing all sides of the situation Someone quick to agree and support you There are no blocks to a situation but you need to ask why Clear skies and smooth sailing

2010-04-04T20:29:00.000-07:00

Two of Cups New meaning in relationships Contracts in the creative arts Union of hearts and minds Possibilites to heal old wounds New energies surging around you Time to put creative thoughts into action Good time for dreams and goals that have been put off to begin Good time to begin work on a new plan All pieces are in place First step to a new future is at hand

2010-04-03T08:52:00.000-07:00

The Six of Wands Shared enthusiasm Successful attainment of goals and dreams Possible to rally others support and assistance Celebration of shared interests Victory Success to be shared with others who are helping you along the way Dreams into action Harmony Passion Exciting things happening in your life Optimism and positive feelings Party and special event planning

2010-04-02T21:20:00.001-07:00

Wipe off that angel face and go back to highschool After the slaughters over were going to come back here and right that victory bell Under clouds of blood Gorging on mucus and bile move around the city quickly and act like a sad old drunk if you attract attention. Cleverness is never as entertaining as blatant stupidity, failure and public humiliation Its time for real Talking about others is just talking the more we pick eachother a part the weaker we all become about yourself Take Gods hand Smoke cigarettes and stay up all night You are taken care of Skeleton christ Bastardize I'm a sick boy Have some fucking respect for those around you. Not everyone has lived a goddamn happy life full of lollipops and mommy and daddy who showered them in gifts. Some people have been forced into some fucked up situation and dealt with their emotions in not the most honorable of ways. Some people aren't proud of their past and would REALLY appreciate that shit NOT being brought up. I don't know if god exists, but it would be better for his reputation if he didn't.Ill be laughing at you're fear They're laughing with you-at you You stink of death Intentional Health Digestion Fermentation

2010-03-31T08:16:00.000-07:00

The Hermit Time for convalescence (gradual healing through rest) after sickness or injury Need to be alone with ones own thoughts Need to cultivate oneself before interacting with others Focus on inner wisdom Loneliness Emotional separation from others or oneself Time to draw ones world in and simply exist for a while Separtation from partner for ones own mental health Quiet is needed Wisdom of older male coming into focus Seek counsel of wise ones around you Seeker of truth Caution Detatchment Prudence

2010-03-30T16:13:00.001-07:00

Two of pentacles Trying to maintain a balance You can keep everything moving smoothly if you go with the flow Be open to new developments and tools that come your way to assist you in your goals You are poised to do something you really enjoy A lightness of spirit in your work Money is flowing freely toward you A business partnership

2010-03-29T20:38:00.000-07:00

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2010-03-29T08:24:00.000-07:00

Judgement Incredible pressure to tell truth lest you be judged A court case or other legal proceeding in which an outcome is assigned Have you done anything for which your judgements or actions would be called into account? Time to examine life, family, friends, career and relationships with a discerning eye Time to deal with something major in your life Transformative energies are surrounding you now A choice is at the ready and must be made now

2010-03-28T13:09:00.000-07:00

Be happy in this moment and enjoy life No worries in sight Gatherings and focus on family and friends Put some ripples in this cesspool Death on the cross I can count my bones When I get older I will be strong just like a waving flagWhere you are is where you're supposed to be You can't keep a good person down You can't change people only god can I have learned to be content in whatever circumstances I am in Bloom where you're planted Recategorizaton If a lot of other people are doing something it must be the right thing for me to do And I think ill sleep instead I don't have the energy to keep a facade I'm going to wakeup with another funny headache and more tattoos

2010-03-28T08:56:00.000-07:00

Three of Cups Return of old friends Deep friendships and romantic attatchments are possible Pregnancy or a new member of the family A celebration Happiness and light Be happy in this moment and enjoy life No worries in sight Gatherings and focus on family and friends Positive engeries surrounding you and those around you A person in love with two people at the same time

2010-03-27T18:11:00.000-07:00

Four of Wands Time to define goals Possible new ventures undertaken with partner or partner An easy project with a good team of people working toward completion Simplicity in business ventures A project that seems to 'be right' Easy to define direction and set course Everything going along as it should without worry or strife Reactions positive to what you are seeking Trying is not needed only desire to do

2010-03-26T09:09:00.000-07:00

Five of Swords Reversed Feeling that you are standing alone in the fight Others no longer support the same causes Us vs. Them mentality Gain of friendship and camraderie Time to concentrate on yourself and your own goals Selfishness Others concerns no longer your cause A power play is at work Boastful You are trying to raise yourself up in others eyes only to look like a fool Stop asking for others approval

2010-03-22T21:04:00.001-07:00

Lord of the Wasteland ‎no one seems to share my brutality seriously Plan for the future be patient He wanted nothing to do with anybody Support the problem Fuel Prayers that bring change May God hold us Fleas and lice Proud to be rough and ready It felt truthful and honest I had to announce to the world that hey guess what I'm a heroin addict Partner in crime & slime Choose deth I'm keith richards I'm james dean The movie goes on and nobody in the audience has any idea Without pain without sacrafice wed have nothingGo live in a delapitated house in a toxic waste part of town Paint the walls with my brain Have you ever heard a death rattle before You can swallow a pint of blood before you get sick Everything else gets the volume turned down The things you own end up owning you Stop being perfect let's evolve let the chips fall as they may Shit man now its all gone Calm as hindu cows Offensive Single serving friends This is your life and its ending one minute at a time Instead of just waiting for their turn to speak Losing all hope was freedom ‘pray for war’ was written on the side of his helmet, and he was talking mostly to a man whose helmet name was ‘swinging dick’

2010-03-22T08:32:00.000-07:00

Ten of Swords Relief The worst is over and you can put it behind you Begining of a new cycle soon A gift from a distance You are able to focus on yourself Take what you have learned and bring about a new goal and plan You got through something unscathed A bit of luck has come your way, use it to your full advantage. You may recieve news that you have won something.

2010-03-21T12:16:00.000-07:00

What pleasures do they find as death comes Dig your own grave I would love to drunk your bathwater Everyone wants to see you fall Do you want to be what's normal in texas? Here's your shotgun and your whisky response to something that is morally wrong whereas embarrassment is the response to something that is morally neutral but socially unacceptable For being born somewhere else Well enough preaching No future Snot chocolate spit burger God made pot. Man made beer. Who do you trust? replace self-centeredness with a growing moral consciousness spiritual malady 1. We admitted we were powerless our lives had become unmanageable. 2. Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity. 3.decision to turn our will and our lives over to the care of God 4. searching and fearless moral inventory 5. Admitted to God, to ourselves, and to another human being the exact nature of our wrongs. 6. Were entirely ready to have God remove all these defects of character. 7. Humbly asked Him to remove our shortcomings. 10. Continued to take personal inventory when wrong promptly admitted it. 11. Sought prayer and meditation to improve our conscious contact with God praying only for knowledge of His will for us and the power to carry that out. 12. Having had a spiritual awakening as the result of these steps, we tried to carry this message to alcoholics, and to practice these principles in all our affairs. emotion regulation, such as faking happiness while with a person to cover true feelings toward them or speaking in a sarcastic or demeaning way to or about the person I'm a sick man ... a mean man. There's nothing attractive about me. I think there's something wrong with my liver. But, actually, I don't understand a damn thing about my sickness; I'm not even too sure what it is that's ailing me Like Trust in the cycle of life

2010-03-20T08:33:00.000-07:00

The Wheel of Fortune The wheel of fortune is turning in your favor now Many projects can now enjoy great success Soon be time to reap benefits of what you are sowing A cycle is continuing Success Unexpected luck Happiness Something new is emerging and will bring forth new and exciting energy Opprotunity Have faith in what is happening at the moment Divine forces at work to bring good fortune into your life Trust in the cycle of life Possible new money on the way

2010-03-20T08:16:00.000-07:00

Some people get lost on their way to the light Are you picking up what Im putting down Watch it go Drink whisky play blackjack and listen to oldschool metal Most people take all this shit seriously to me its just one big jackoff session Goddamn sucker rotted out and fell right on the floor Its time for your whisky medecine Eat it don't taste it Far beyond driven You can't water it down I'm not willing to give up my sanity and happoness for this Open your mind change your waysViews of digust Absence denotes failure Experience life as a relentless struggle for perfection The struggle for power over death An outfit to drink gin in then throw oneself over the nearest brige Everything profound loves a mask Markets depend on scarcity Imagination is immoral The fascination depends entirely on authenticity The problem with people who lose belief in God is not that they end up believing nothing, but that they will believe in anything Imperfect human life and unlovely human flesh Francis bacon became world famous painting decayed, violated, blownapart and putrefying bodies That which is primitve is more pure Deschooling society Degas made headlines by painting prostitutes and ballerinas without trying to perfect them Warts and all The search of honesty through ugliness Why is it we no longer trust our unbuilt future Striving to look uncontrived Reflected badly on her own moral qualities Suboptimal pairing Extensions of man extensions of our capabilities Cannabis as a technology of dreaming All speedfreaks are liars All this bullshit will make me strong

2010-03-19T13:04:00.000-07:00

The Chariot Concentrations on objectives is needed Path is clear do not get sidetracked by outside forces Triumph Vengence Overcoming of obstacles Clearing of path to victory and ones desires Force of Will Strength in Focus No time for outside influence Headstrong Rush of energy in ones favor now Travel is possible Swift nature in reaching ones goals Positive and quick result on the way No time for delay in completing course of action Strong will.

2010-03-18T17:38:00.001-07:00

the devil devouring the damned Nature is our chapel Look beyond our pain, recognize our wrongs, and work towards correcting our mistakes Old guilt can poison a new life Forced to examine his life We cannot control tragedies Is punishing yourself worth the pain Life sentence of hatred Sometimes we can not make amends for our past mistakes Many of us do believe in corny old things like Truth Justice and the American Way Waging a civil war inside your head Do you believe in honesty and tell lies When temptation is staring us in the face we usually take the path to immediate pleasure Balance competing values Black lies Ask for strength and forgiveness He decided to put the problem in Gods hands Doomed to suffer because of one moment of weakness Surely God would punish him for his crime I wasn't a liar anymore She knew shed get caught sooner or later Take the consequences Self honesty will give you a clear perspective Visualizing all the consequences bound to happen when he or she gets caught Battery acid of the soul Shed been in limbo for months waiting for something to happen No longer looking for evidence Do we choose ordinary happiness? By objective standards she is a success Looking for a way to be comatose without being blamed for it Everyday has its own brand of crap you've got to eat Even presidents have lust in their hearts Our mental vision of ourselves Our perspective on life that sets the tone for our existanceLive in a habitat of gloom The mind is its own place and in itself can make a heaven of hell a hell of heaven Vanity of vanities saith the Preacher All is vanity Went to battle supported by a God-saturated mind Advised praying going to church and reading the bible Do the thing you fear and death of fear is certain Few people could bear his gloomy outlook on the world The way to dusty death It is a tale told by an idiot signifying nothing Find better ways to increase the likelyhood of success Excuse strategy for failure Others found only fools gold You're not giving up sometime of value Hotwired on coke and mellowed on champagne A memoir of illusionSelf imposed troubles We would be less depressed if we took better care of ourselves Some sweet oblivious antidote Self medication providing momentary relief from confusioon and woe The search for highs begins as a flight from lows Better do to no end than nothing Spend long hours in a darkened room huddled under bedding that hasn't been washed Deny my growing wish for death Naturally Cause that's what they were told to do Someday I won't be sick Let's burn together And I don't want to live this life just give me bad news so I can keep on drinking Burnout is associated with higher cortisol levels Hunt for pleasure In a mad world only the mad are sane motivated more by a fear of failure When you try very hard you look a mess Please accept my honesty

2010-03-18T08:09:00.000-07:00

The Sun Prosperity in relationships and career is possible now Sun god present and shining down upon you A good time to plant new crops or begin new projects Negativity of moons influence gone and cycle can begin anew Truth and Revelation Good Health, recovery and happiness Time out in the sun is called for, perhaps a vacation to a warm place is warranted All things bright and out in the open

2010-03-17T10:59:00.001-07:00

You are ignoring an issue that is plaguing your life Fighting a losing battle It takes time to learn Stained I am falling into rythmn with God loud noises and foul odours The blocking of an impulse False hopes set up for greater disappointment Requires less mental energy Working together toward shared goals Dividing the world into in groups and outgroups Arousing fearNorms create a stable and predictable environment validate our judgements Behaviours are unexpected goals are not attained Our expectations effect how we percieve Once an impression is formed it provides the frameworks throught which we interpret later information Actual imagined or implied prescence of others influences our thoughts feelings and behaviour Don't be a hard rock when you really are a gem Sweetened by the knowledge your a dead man walking Live like you're dying Wake up you consuming fucks In order to survive they had to start thinking like a criminal Fight the future fuck the past People go there to smoke weed and have sex Born bad If you wanna be great do heroin Need some real distractions from the way I feel You'll have to excuse me I'm not at my best

2010-03-17T08:46:00.001-07:00

The Eight of Wands Reversed Situation still unresolved Situations lingering that need to be addressed Only smallest of steps able to be taken as things still not on correct path or right track stopping and starting that is impossible to change whatever is causing breakdown needs fixing before growth can occur you are ignoring an issue that is plauging your life time to address a nagging feeling

2010-03-14T20:10:00.001-07:00

Hollywood will fuck you when no one else will I've been running with one leg imagine when this thing improves You are not that important Wealth is a ghetto My corpse in the ground being eaten buy worms Percieve and interpret what is going on around us Fantasies of death no longer haunted her Lost sense of self worth Emotional flatness Going through the motions of living The world is black and life is futile All she can seem to do is chain smoke and drink wint The same fire that melts the butter boils the egg You really don't care anymore Your emotional responses are out of proportion to the stimulus You may find you have retained little or nothing Born to suffer Righteous punishment for our sinful nature Radiated doom and gloom enhance our human potential adding depth and meaning to life DOOM Lifes a bitch and then ya die Compliments won't change the way she feels about her sudden loss Morbid self analysis View the whole world through a black filter so trivial or unlikely to help that they won't try them If you wait to feel motivated you'll be waiting a long timeSelf fufilling prophecy Reduction in the amount of pleasant life experiences Hopeless doesn't mean helpless Natural desire to be alone with ones pain I think only stupid people have good relationships You give them a big mac and some nikes and they're happy In a time of uncertainty Deals with issues Its america dude learn the rules Well its like I always say take my life please Dead alive Get drunk a lot and work 40 hours a week Don't just do something sit there Emotional and psychological problems he was medicating with drugs Rigorous painful gut wrentching honesty The partys over Who am I to try to dictate the outcome of this experience before I even experience itThis is an experiewnce that's happening You're one of them Grieve for the childhood she never had and unlearn the negative messages she internalized growing up Modern culture withou its perennial outsidersIf we can't stuff our feelingd with sex let's stuff them with food I criticize instead of having compassion But for the grace of God Weak ludacris almost unamerican Came to believe a power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity Spititual connection rigorous honestyu Say a prayer while the rest of us stand in silence Outside of society You never wanted me so I say fuck you

2010-03-12T17:33:00.000-08:00

Life is disrespectful Punk trashead It will make them stronger Warroir soul at an earlier age because I don't have to deal with anyone I'm content with myself Survival of the fittest Love of degredation Enough to pay my hospital bills and my jail fines I'm an animal you're right and proud of it Conditioned for that situatoon I can grow strength from being a victim cause I won't do it again Never put in a tragic situation He smells like sweat and fear I just try to keep myself occupied and life a righteous path Is it a coverup for something she feels she lacks within herselfNever give up ur dreams of being fake I don't want to be bailed out of anything Keehap it grimey ve to watch as their pure, beautiful daughters marry Jews, blacks, Asians and Hispanics before giving birth to hordes of homosexual children Daughters I aint gonna lose Heavier than heaven Its good to be poor, you get hungry again For the things I lack, I will not apologize. has also said that if he didn't do his performances he would probably be a mass murderer Allin did not appear psychotic, and seemed comfortable with his unorthodox lifestyle suicide should only be done when one had reached his peak, meeting the afterlife at his strongest point and not at his weakest With GG, you don't get what you expect—you get what you deserve Physical attractiveness had the least effect on how likeable someone was His constant touring was only stopped by jail time or by long hospital stays for broken bones, blood poisoning, and other physical trauma. Allin was also fascinated with serial killers He wrote and visited John Wayne Gacy in prison a number of times and Gacy painted a portrait of Allin, which became the album cover to the soundtrack of the film, Hated: GG Allin And The Murder Junkies Unwilling to seek steady employment, relative loners and outsiders, both were habitual users of intoxicants, both lived with few, if any, possessions and both traveled the country relentlessly Allin was addicted to heroin and alcohol and generally abused any intoxicants provided to him, sometimes taking pills without even asking what they were. His hygiene was atrocious and he only rarely bathed Full of chances and dangers Allin's father, who forbade all conversation in the home after dark, was a religious fanatic and an antisocial man All he does is sleep and eat Nothing feels right when I'm not high Break you down to build you back up I wish I could take that pain away from him She had to relearn everything We prayed everyday and our faith got us through Get over yourself

2010-03-12T14:24:00.000-08:00

Don't let emotional trouble murder your personal judgement or your professional goals you are likely to take things the wrong way or give the wrong imprssion. Once you make a transition everythjing will get back to normal.

Often, happiness for you is being at peace with the past today you'll reach new heights as you live in the moment

2010-03-11T17:41:00.001-08:00

To the city you're a virgin The best of a bad situation Accept the inevitability of death and prepare for it First establish their own identity before true intimacy is possible A sense of who they are where's they have been and where they are goingSudden violent wish to have a choice Each stage is defined by a conflict involving the individuals realtionship witht the social environment that must be resolved Greater experience and education Living in a world of here and now The accomplishments of one stage are the foundation for the next Please give me a million dollars and a fridge with a padlock You wanna make it in this world you gotta adapt You played yourself Letterman Loss of dreams You can't change it so you hold your head up high Thinking about tomorrow wont change how I feel today..Cheapen You don't have to like it Now when I get the sun I smile A reason to smile it makes tommorrow alright ATTATCHMENT LOSS This drives most people crazy Cook meals at home I'm eating eggs and grapefruit at the Terrace Green Anybody want to waste some time? You don't believe in anything Face the reality of the loss Relentlessly challenge distortions day to day It will only hurt me to predict doom and gloom It only hurts me to focus on my weaknesses We need to have treatment centres like we have 711's You might want to change your life,later? You're okay with you're life being a fucking mess right now She hung out only with other users The sun reflecting off a church and welfare hotel across the street If you play the tape all the way to the end how do you think you'll feel when its over Hooked on how he feels or thinks he feels Ill get sick of this life like I always do A liqor store and church on ever corner drink your life away and go pray to God to make it better There's a lot of dysfunction and denial in our family Before I knew it I was craving it and needed it to function Heightened awareness that millions of Americans are suffering from chronic pain Sometimes I think God could do us a favor and crash a 747 into this fucking place

2010-03-09T14:35:00.000-08:00

Thinking Man Deviation of some ideal of perfection Doubt your doubts not your beliefs Sense of shared gried, citywide funeral I was avidly seeking someone as sad as I was I kind of thought I'd either recover or die and both seemed very natural Despair was a brea from the ordinary Leaving the secular shores of sanity behind me I'm in real trouble and Aint no solace abiding by the Constitution as best you understand that and looking out for your fellow Americans. We killed more people beofre 7am than most countries kill all day Be all you can be Saggy pants and nose rings You get your youngs, n ill get my youngs. Oi Working class Everyone has to play no one is excused Forced to play a no win game of femininity How do you get by day to day Sometimes the devil you know is better than the one you don't Questioning your own sense of reality You isolate yourself cause its easier Um like whatever Hate The Living, Love The Dead Welcome to the wasteland Product of waste Lead us not into temptation Some people say in order to survive it you must be as mad as a hatter our daily breadRoach class I guess I would complain too if I sucked When a preoccupation for flatulence takes importance over human life Born dead She faces an honest future and my thoughts they surely wereTurned to instinct and obedience to God Nothing is permanent Another shot of whiskeyRepent or Perish Low levels of social aspiration Your trust is in whiskey and weed and Black Sabbath Black tooth grin

2010-03-06T16:53:00.001-08:00

The things we do just to stay aliveLet's make better mistakes tommorrow Can my violence conquer yours Sanitys not a choice you can't just choose to get over it Like all guilty men you try to rewrite your history Turn them on eachother The truth is always a better story than that you can make up Punks not dead it just smells that way Ignorance is Bliss Don't allow the darker side of things to control the situation Don't like me I don't give a shit It’s hard to talk with your dick in my mouth

2010-03-05T10:25:00.001-08:00

The Devil. Obessession Compulsion Overzealous behaviour Difficult Relationships Dont allow the darker side of things to control the situation Negative emotions are trying to come into play Time to reverse them before its too late Something is trying to chain you A problem of somesort that is difficult to overcome at the present time Seek outside help when the forces may be greater than you possible opinion of others having too much influence in your life You need to break free of something

2010-03-04T15:54:00.000-08:00

Don't isolate youreself If this is the worst part of me then I'm a great person an unscrupulous man who tries to siphon gas from an old couple's RV accidentally gets a mouth full of biological waste Getting trapped under a gas truck that's the worst Have the mentality appropriate to a state of war Scarcity increases the importance of small privledges Every animal and man knows pains a bad thing Competition leads to prejudice If you don't seek the light you die in the darkness Unusual associations Their thoughts are your thoughts do not seek more its all right here Working towards some greater future gain Persist at tasks even when frustrated I got to laugh cause I know I'm going to die If only your veins were filled with oil the world would rush to your rescue

2010-03-02T18:57:00.001-08:00

The contrasting reaction to the well known is one of boredom. 4
boredom, loss of zest in life, self-dislike, general depression of the bodily functions, steady deterioration of the intellectual life, of tastes, etc
The self-actualized person also has basic human imperfections such as wasteful habits, vanity, pride, partiality to their family and friends, and temper outbursts
In Taoism and Buddhism people free themselves of worldly possessions, thus freeing themselves from societal pressures and power.“perfect” being as one who is independent and makes decisions based upon nature and not the external authority of society or man.