criystal dom:
what most people around me don’t know (but some on tumblr sorta know) is
that i have been intensely anxious and on-edge for years, and that it has drained me mentally and physically, knotted up my neck muscles to a point where they won’t come back to normal anymore and just holding my head up normally hurts me, exhausted my adrenaline glands, fucked my hormone levels/ production (cortisone etc), destroyed my digestive system seemingly to a point of no return, aged my skin and hair very prematurely, fucked with my blood sugar levels, exploded all the blood vessels in my eyes also seemingly to a point of no return (oh nice), and created a situation where i can’t even handle minor stress anymore without crumbling into a state of despair and start to sob all over myself like a child. feel i’ve crossed the threshold and now the only thing that could save my health is two years in a swiss clinic retreat with a special healing diet and all day meditation and strolls into the valley.
but i cant just say all that stuff to ppl around me, so i just keep looking like a corpse and acting slightly off, hoping those around me won’t end up getting fed of of the half-functioning human in their lives.
