••I'm not done getting better.••
Let's just say I was testing the bounds of reality - Jim Morrison
:::::The hermit turns his back on the world and refuses to have anything to do with it; but one can do more than this! One can try to re-create the world, to build another in its place, one in which the most intolerable features are eliminated and replaced by others that accros with ones desires ::::::
it was only when your world was threated with destruction that you became what you are now.
As much success as I could pull out of defeat
;;;;; I'm not telling you its going to be easy, I'm telling you its going to be worth it
..Sense of self belonging to the years of maturity
I don’t care if people hate my guts; I assume most of them do
>The most highly developed species evolved from the lowest
`•• A tendency arises to detach from anything that may give rise to unpleasurable experience
If things are too painful, or too frightening our brains block them
» your fear of being hurt motivates you to withdraw into the safety of your own private world.
::::: feel that any form of rejection,, ridicule, humiliation or grief would be personally intolerable. Consequently, they create a wall of invulnerability, become enclosed in their own worlds, and prefer to maintain control over their circumstances. They avoid being hurt at all costs.
Nancy: If I asked you to kill me, would you? Sid: I don't know. How would I do it? I couldn't live without ya.
sometimes I think it wouldn’t have been as tough if I didn’t make all these mistakes because of my lack of experience
Nattramn / Silencer
Philosohpy defined as the finding of bad reason for what one believes by instinct
Be Nothing
one of beauty that is imperfect, impermanent and incomplete What fun it would be if one didn't have to think of happiness among the miseries of space and time
Their sadness was a symptom of their love for one another
And within minutes had embarked for lunar eternity
Dark art for the satanic elite
The direction of my work is yet to fully reveal itself to me but finally the pieces are coming into place
I'd rather be unhappy than have a sort of flase lying happiness
.... It hasn't been very good for happiness, but its been very good for truth
There is nothing good or bad, but thinking makes it so
-hamlet shakespeare
!!!!Irrational belief may involve exagerated needs to be approved of by everyone and to avoid any situationin which negative apprasisal from others might arise
----»» I CAN STAND IT
You can't hurt me I'm already dead
Where id was there shall ego be
...Our eagles become our vultures
Emotion moves us and reason guides us
engaged in daydreaming or purposefully letting our thoughts wander,
Common addictions:
Alcohol as a social lubriant
Love or the illusion of it
......(SPD) is a personality disorder characterized by a lack of interest in social relationships, sometimes sexually apathetic, a tendency towards a solitary lifestyle, secretiveness, and emotional coldness
• "asexual, sometimes celibate; free of romantic interests;
basic schizoid defense of not identifying emotionally with the situation
... to avoid the destruction of the self by avoiding the emotion rather than the situation.
Gradually break down the defences that block awareness of unconcious processes
Defensive responses to anxiety
"kill the father" means destroying everything hierarchical, controlling, and restrictive in one's psyche, while "fuck the mother" means embracing everything that is expansive, flowing, and alive in the psyche
Peste noir
Witch-Lord
Two Hunters - Wolves In The Throne Room
described as one of beauty that is “imperfect, impermanent and incomplete”
I beseech you my brothers, remain true to the earth, and do not believe those who speak to you of otherworldly hopes! They are poison-mixers, whether they know it or not.
Thus Spoke Zarathustra, Nietzsche
Ill make smarter mistakes
And within minutes had embarked for lunar eternity
when people I favour reject me it often reveals more about them and their tastes than about me
the “allness” of God denies the reality of sin, sickness, death, and the material world
non compos mentis
“destroyer of confusion,” “destroyer of darkness,” or “annihilator of ignorance.”
